June Message of the Month: Time to do YOU!

June Message of the Month: Time to do YOU

by Shiela Reed

It has been a very introspective month.

As I sit and wonder how in the world another month has come and now almost gone, and how I thought several times earlier in the month about what the message of the month was to be.. it seemed everything coming in has been about my own need to reflect within, and then the “message” came this weekend. That THIS is actually the message of the month. The sharing of WHERE the energies of big healing have been this month.

It’s been within. It’s been within each of us individually and within our collective. It is the underlying “rumbling” – like when we are hungry but for something specific, but we just can’t put our finger on what it is. Knowing that we need to eat “something” but it needs to be “that thing we are actually hungry for” – and knowing that if we only eat to stop the hunger pains and “miss” the prompt for the specific food, we are actually just masking/bandaiding something deeper that WILL come up again later.

It’s kind of an – uneasiness- because it’s unknown – so the more uncomfortable we are with the unknown (or the more we prefer to “control” things) the more uneasy we have felt. We know this “feeling”. We also know we tend to want to avoid it. Yet this month it has come again, and even in the uneasiness, we have been able to “allow it” more than ever before. This does not mean we have liked it! We may have felt serious deep pains. Like very old scars that have resurfaced. For those that are semi aware/awake – we “see it” and know.

Yes there has been and continues to be “unrest”. Each person, each group, all having personal experiences and reactions that have effects on the whole. Even when those are kept silent.. there is still energetic movement. Even for the “unaware/unawake”. It is time…

These “movements” take on physical form. Whether we like it or not. We are here in human form, so there is a bind here. Many of us struggle to find even small appreciation in this, much less a deeper level of gratitude. Which is necessary for us to live a life of inner peace. As we learn to balance the “both” and “all” parts of this existence on the journey.

It is time… it is time to do YOU. We all will and are, regardless anyway.. the level of painfulness of it is up to us.

But the kicker is that if our choices take us to higher levels of “pain” (aka “learning the hard way”) – we have every right to be there and do that. Just remember- was that “pain”/lesson based on purposely disregarding our own inner promptings of truth or was it simply the best we could do at the time, because it was honestly all we knew? I have to constantly remind myself to have compassion for MYSELF first- or I will never be able to share or show deep compassion for another/others.

Yes, most of the time “if we knew better we would do better”. Yet I also find I STILL will purposely choose to “learn the hard way” (aka increase my own pain and suffering) – sometimes it seems to be for the purpose of “anchoring in” – so when the opposite arises and materializes, I actually “recognize” it.

Of course I continue to learn how when my ego/mind is dominating this, it actually takes me somewhere else completely. Maybe resulting in a “dark night of the soul” type of experience. But my month of June has shown me an importance in having a deeper compassion, appreciation, and willingness to “collaborate” with my ego/mind/critical inner voice- rather than admonishing it, condemning it, and wishing for it to not exist.

So another layer of “knowing better” has presented itself. For that I am grateful. I pray and contemplate and ask for an open heart, mind, and eyes to “see” what “comes next” – without the need to control, force, or direct it.

The inner reflecting and promptings from within have been deep this month. Even if you can’t exactly “see” what they are. TRUST they are there in each of us, and be open to where they are leading us in the coming months.

Be not afraid. Connect to your inner heart space and divine creation light – and drop in to the moment to moment aspects of this life.

It is time. It is time to do YOU as each of us were created to do.

Much love and blessings as we once again transition between months and time.
Our growth is inevitable. ❤

Shiela

Added personal note
Upon my own reflecting, I got caught by a memory of my “best friend” pup who passed a couple years ago and how 6-27-20 would have been his birthday. Interesting how this happens and we go down a memory lane. I’ve learned to let it come and its OK. Even to feel the strength of the emotions. It is a reminder of sorts for how I can and do LOVE deeply. ❤

Thus is so true of all my BIG feelings. And I find it can feel hard to let this happen. I am grateful none the less for the “lessons” – no matter how “hard” they may be or I choose to make them. I want to continue to learn compassion from my core being.

Humbly –
Shiela

The Grace I’ve been Given for my AA “birthday”

The Grace I’ve been Given for my AA “birthday”
By Shiela Reed
The grace I’ve been given started with a choice I made. Each and every time it’s been about me relinquishing my pride just enough to allow for a change that has healed me a little more than the day before.
Sometimes these have been very obvious pivotal moments that created a very different path. Other times it’s been very subtle.
During times of deep reflection and contemplation I become very aware of the blessing of Grace and am reminded that I am to be grateful for these opportunities to grow, even when they have tested me to what I think are my limits and I wonder why…This is my truth from when I turned to AA 14 years ago. As one of the pivotal BIG moments that changed the trajectory of my life. That choice was a stepping stone to multiple others and the things I’ve been open to learn about myself simply wouldn’t have been able to take hold without that one decision.
There’s no doubt I was a “hot mess”. Even if most people didn’t even see it that way. It wasn’t as “obvious” on the outside. There were binges enough but not exactly what many people would “add up” to being “a problem”. Sure, later, it may have made sense as an “oh yeah, I could see that” – but a small few really could see…

I was broken inside – but not unmendable. My “link” to my soul self had big gaps and while I saw and knew it was there, the distance between that and what my mind was seeing as “reality” – felt like the Grand Cannon. So I suffered silently and alone. Bouncing back and forth across this “canyon”. Touching base with my true self quietly yet not being able to fully connect it with a “true” living life. This kept me “unwell” and separate. Separate from Source and struggling to have a true connection with myself and others. When I was able to admit the damage and totality of what was being affected INSIDE ME… THAT was when it changed.I barely remember or recognize that life anymore. I think fondly of the times and “fun” and less of the pain since working through all that years ago, but I stay forever aware of the underlying components that create room for backsliding and relapses – of spirit and intention- that could negatively affect my inner integrity and ultimately have the potential to lead me to detrimental choices and behaviors.

My journey of self reflection and personal growth is a real matter of true “life or death” for me. No it isn’t always perfect, nor will it ever be. I have as many rough days as great ones, but I try my best to be thankful for them all.

While I find some interest and satisfaction and even elements of importance in reflection… I know it cannot become stuck lamenting over “should haves” or “could haves”. Each day is new and I have something new to learn. I am no longer that person, yet that person is very much a part of me. Just as our childhoods or pasts are no longer “us” and doesn’t need to “define”/confine us.. they are still very much a PART of us.I may run back into people from my past, I am sure I remember things “differently”.. it is interesting to reflect- but know that I am a new person with new things about me to get to know. That’s the relationship I have with myself today because I’ve been blessed to have it… one choice at a time.

It truly is a “one day at a time” focus that helps maintain neutrality and keeps us from getting stuck in the past or becoming too afraid of the future.

Today I am even more aware of the importance of not going back into the darkness of silence. I do not need to boast or brag or have an egotistical type of pride. (One that is based on thinking it is ALL my doing.) I know this is not the full truth. YES, it is MY choice, and for that I AM proud. Yet I realize to have the opportunity, to be open, and be shown those windows to my soul, is a divine blessing from somewhere greater than me.

For this sharing and oneness of sacred space, I am forever humbled and grateful as my soul/true self connects with my creator and the Divine.

Thank you for another year, another moment in time…

Much love and blessings and thanks for sharing this special time with me. ❤

Shiela

January 2020 Message of the Month – Balance of Past, Present, and Future

Balance of Past, Present, and Future

by Shiela Reed

Welcome to 2020! A new year and new decade!

What an amazing time to be alive! There is so much going on and I find myself embracing this life as I know it now. This is quite a bit different than how I have known things. It’s nice to actually finally feel that things are coming together.

I had been mostly aware and connected to my physical beingness as far as an outward expression, up to around 2010 and had always felt and had a very “separateness” to my inner self and awareness. I always knew it was there, and I actually always knew what it was saying, but I found myself often “ignoring it”. I kept choosing to be connected to one or the other at different points and finally realized I actually wasn’t “balanced” at all! Instead I needed to “blend” so it was one, the other, both, the same, and neither all at once.

My journey up to that point was a lot of reconciling the past, so as I went deeper into my inner soul journey and what I “thought” that needed to be, I found I really started to separate from my physical and didn’t exactly realize it. So over these years of inner work and “leaving out the physical” – I really just perpetuated a different version of the same duality. As that came more into my awareness the last couple of years I have found myself kind of naturally working on melding/blending/balancing them and naturally finding the inclusion of all my aspects. Physical, mental, emotional, spiritual/soul, energetic/etheric.
Interestingly enough, it is not until now, at this point in time, have I really felt such a cool “clearness” to this awareness and what it feels like to kind of be “together” in ONE.

So as I meditate and contemplate this season of my life and feel the awareness of my previous work and especially how the first half of this last decade began to pull together the acknowledgment that my past experiences were learning opportunities, was I able to start to be able to truly embrace and forgive myself for not “knowing everything”. I learned to allow healing of much of my “past”. And as the mid to later parts of the last decade began to show me how to begin looking at the importance of becoming more in-tune with my present self, I found myself naturally ending the last year of this decade also becoming more aware that my future self has something to contribute as well. I find a deep self healing resonance in this space as my true self shows me the creation of my own trinity of “full self”.

THIS has been the most recent work I have been doing and it is very humbling how this has shown itself to me and how the next decade of the journey for me is to be about further combining, melding, and balancing all three to feel true PEACE in my present moments.

So I feel compelled to share the message of this month, the first month of a new year and new decade- as it is time to feel balance in our past, present, and future.

As I draw from my own journey and works and the message that has come forward for this month and year, my hope is that there is something that resonates to move you one step closer to your own true purpose in your own journey.

While we all have different places we are at, there is a need for understanding and remembering that it’s all important, but just in different ways than our mind tries to understand it. I believe this is why it is difficult to write and share it sometimes.

We may know mentally that the “past is the past”, but we don’t understand why we cannot seem to “let go” of something in particular. This is the example of an energetic tie which is usually related to an element of our ego needs being met somehow. We either found safety, solace, acceptance, justification or any other number of “pay off’s” that we thought were meant to “make us feel better” or “support” us in some way.

For me, a very important turning point was being able to truly see that we do the best we can with what we have at the time and I feel that with true heartfelt compassion. While I’ve always said that and known it, I strangely realized, I had seemed to always do this much more freely with others than I could for myself. This is likely why I was drawn to being part of the helping field professions. Once I noticed this began to shift for me, it helped me see there was so much more to my “aliveness”.

I began to see the effects on my “nowness”. So this understanding that truly being PRESENT then expanded to include learning how to reconcile my own past within myself. We can see that occur for people when there is a deeper level of forgiveness that truly has “no strings attached” and it’s expression radiates with a feeling of unconditional love. When I started to feel that for myself, it was amazing the warmth and expansion I felt within.

The present became something that was “more” than it had been. It now included a healed part of me.

Today, there is a recognition that my newest understanding of “being present” also has inclusion of the future. Not as in controlling it and/or being afraid of it, which is what I found to be blocking my ability to truly to connect to it. But a similar kind of lovingness I learned to have by embracing my past.  The ability gain the balance of having a connection to my future self is equally important and necessary for me to truly be PRESENT in my current moments.

As this has also been expanding for me, I feel the beginnings of a similar shift. A space of new awareness and growth. It shows me new information about myself and the world I’m a part of. This change and paradigm shift in our present world seems to be reflecting similarly in many others. It says “balance the past and future to create the truest form of the present”.

Clearly we each have our own role/part in this process. It does not mean the present becomes “perfect”. Every “part” still contributes to the “whole”. So they won’t be the same.  So we will need to pay attention to being drawn to judgement, of self or others.  We will learn to be “ok” with different because deep down we know WE are ok too.

I am truly hopeful that as this year unfolds and the exciting new things emerge- we can all begin to see how we can each choose our parts to contribute to that “newness” and begin to do that more and more together. By combining the cool differences to create something new.  A new invention, a new theory, a new thought, a new way of life….  Even if we are different from one another.

So may your reflections on your past show you your life lessons and your true inner self show you how to be easy with yourself and others, as you learn to allow those lessons to unfold into new experiences in the present. And in these new experiences may we all be able to see the excitement of a new lesson and the opportunities it brings while not being fearful of our future.  Thus we may fully embrace being a soul with a body in this world.  And so it is…

Many blessings and hopes for a new year and decade full of building blocks that will be the solid base we each need for the bigger future.

Shiela

June Message of the Month – A Collection

June message of the month:  A Collection

By Shiela Reed

While this month has somehow flown by, I had noticed earlier in the month snippets of messages and topics came in and I didn’t end up elaborating on them as I thought I might.
So instead I’m led to share the “pieces” with you and see if any of them resonate with you. Maybe each topic carries it’s own deeper message for each of us this month and all we need to do is see which part we “tune in to” to get more information… what do you think?June 4 2019
Doing what we’re good at – Being who we are

Wouldn’t it be cool if we all got to “do what we’re naturally good at”/interested in and thus got to really “BE who we really are”?! – all with no pretenses…
I wonder how different this world would be? Would it all be lovely or would there be elements of darkness that would also be exposed? I’m suspecting that there would be beautiful beaming lights of humanness and probably a lot of shadow traits that would have the light shown upon them which would cause an appearance of “darkness” due to the “feelings” of “pain” associated with the “sloughing off” of deep multiple layers of baggage ….

What does this bring up for you?

(for me it’s a reminder about choices – this CAN be a reality – “doing what we’re good at and being who we truly are”.

June 5
NEW CONNECTIONS

I decided out of the blue to read info from an email I never read – Galactic Connection- and found articles from IN5D.com (regarding the changing energy paradigm)
1- magnetic pole shifts – Shumann Resonance
2- Adam Kadmon lightbody interview 1997 very fascinating (tears as I felt truth – practice telepathy- prepare physical body)
3 – entering photon belt
4 – age of aquarius
5- crystalline grid from carbon bodies
6- merkabah field
Basically about how we will just know, just do, just be – but we need to help our body be physically adaptable – each persons free will and choice – as we awaken, we can only share, and can’t make others follow or see. For the full shift to occur for human kind, it takes all the “pieces” and all the pieces are here this time!

I had tears because it’s true!! It reminded me about how I want to use my gifts! I need to be around others like me a little more, but in reality, I can do all this on my own, I just need to choose. I don’t want to sit this out or be stuck in only physical form! So I need to tune up!

I literally had the tears of happy awareness as I read each thing and felt the “yes it’s true, I cannot wait” ping..I thought about how I wish I had already written and published my book.

Regardless really cool shit on that webpage!!

Clues…

June 6
NEXT LEVEL ascension

Thoughts came in about when humans are going through the aging process, the experiences they go through is actually change as part of the preparation to ascend to a new level of soul growth and experience.
For example noticing changes in how the past is processed (this is why as we age we become more reflective in regards to our past and life lessons etc)
Sometimes there are changes in personality and people seemingly become “different people”, of course this is based on experiences but also is based on the souls processing of past experiences (or lack of doing so) – i.e. things left “unresolved” will usually find their way out – even if we never make a clear connection with the originating source.
Seems to make sense as a natural flow of life to “be ready” for the next one wouldn’t you say?

June 11
Importance
“It becomes important when it’s important”

June 28 2019
WHY the journey

It can seem kind of cruel to have to go through the pains of the life lessons and I’ve often wondered “why do we have to go through this?” Sometimes it feels a little like someone’s experiment and we’re all just playing parts in it. Yet even if that where the case, what am I gonna control? Really nothing except for what I “see” and what I take in and this is when I have started to really to notice  a connection to the beauty… I can glance over and see a beautiful field of flowers, I can appreciate a beautiful drive, I can enjoy the vastness of nature and even watch the compassion unfold between people in a crisis. In all reality, maybe it doesn’t matter what “bigger energy” is in charge as long as we are all learning how to connect inside ourselves to that deep place within each of us where we find our souls truth.

Where is your journey taking you?

I hope June has brought you new pieces of information and you were able to resonate with one of more of these shorter messages this month. May you be able to connect with one or more of them and already be seeing the ways that they are guiding you into July.

Much peace, love, and light in the new month
Shiela

Technology and Judgement

by Shiela Reed

While the advancement of our technological world has great benefits, it is also extremely important to remember the need to connect within and truly know your inner self.
We can utilize technology in very positive ways but it can also hijack our energy systems if we are not careful.
Here are some examples that just pop into my head- people have cameras and ways to watch EVERYONE these days, so while it is great for “catching” and seeing people in terrible acts, it can also feed the judgement machine and create an atmosphere void of the ability to show compassion or even forgive. It can push down the energy of someone else. And while we may “feel justified” based on our own moral compass, we might consider using caution about how far we go.
Today let’s say your minding your own business walking in your neighborhood and people have cameras up. You don’t really know or notice it think about it, but as you walk you have a wedgie (you know, underwear stuck uncomfortably in the wrong spot) and you go to digging to get it loose. And go on about your walk. A week or so goes by and some tags you on social media as a video is circulating making fun of what you did because you were “caught” on someone’s camera!
So what is “fair” here? The technology wins and you are just a “spectacle” for everyone’s amusement? Some will claim you are too sensitive.. (this may even add to why people become so “paranoid”).. these are things that can just go too far and instead of the human race showing compassion (hey I bet we have all picked the underwear out of our butt at some point) – is THIS what we are about now? Jumping to conclusions, making our own stories up about others? Putting people down or making fun when we have our own imperfections?… of course things can be funny and amusing. But remember, it’s better to be laughed WITH than AT…
One could stick with the argument that people have gotten “too sensitive” and while there is absolutely truth to the fact that many of us get really good and comfortable playing “the victim” and don’t look within either- instead we project and judge in those situations too and “blame others” for “picking on us”..

I guess what I keep noticing and what keeps getting brought back to my attention and what I was led to share is that without a healthy true inner compass connected to your true you and the divine creator of life, we’re just a bunch of ego heads running around banging into each other. Feeling “justified”, self righteous, judgey, and disconnected …
Remember too, we cannot truly whole heartedly connect with others if we are not first connected to our real self in divine light and love. I get that it sounds woowoo, but I bet you know that feeling point I’m referencing.
So in this world of growing technology, stop and think.. I know it doesn’t lend itself to that because everything is moving so fast and then our systems try to keep up, so we think we should also be moving faster. But this is why we end up exhausted and depleted and “crash” energetically = Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and/or etherically.
It’s not to “bash” technology – our own awareness and choices about it is what makes it turn out as a “good” thing for us or not. I’ll leave you with what I find to be a cool example, at least in my mind. 😊
When I am centered and aligned within, and need an “answer” or some guidance on a topic, I take a moment to focus in on being open to what I “need” – what is “best” according to my true self – and I do not focus in on judging whatever comes forward. I then may look something up on the internet and “happen” to find exactly what I am “needing” at the moment. (And I can just “feel” that it is “true” to me)
It may be looking for a new doctor, it may be looking for a certain crystal, or oil.. I just try to remain “open” and this is when technology has helped me a great deal.
It really is a big topic and I’m sure one that has layers upon layers of “debate” and discussion. But at the core, at least how it comes forward to me, is that it boils down to our own connection first and then our CHOICE.
Where is your heart aligned?

Deep thoughts and heartfelt guidance sent your way..
Shiela

A New Year Reflection of 2018 – by Shiela Reed

A year in review.. while there have been majorly significant events occur in my personal life, it has also been a year of major shifting of energies for everyone across time and space.

Our world is always changing and while there have been large shifts in history, this year is one of them for us in this lifetime. While this time is one of transformation, we all are feeling the mental, emotional, and even physical effects of the energetic shifts of the universe that we do not “see”… there is a HOPE for a future of peace.

There is such a natural desire to reflect and ponder on our year(s) past, while also dreaming into the next year and our future ones. Yet innately we know we cannot linger in either place too long. The memories of the past and the activities of the future only exist TODAY. And this is when we create our new awareness.

While it is important to have our moments and live in the experiences full of all kinds of emotions, I am reminded that my fears of losing memories and/or of not being able to control an outcome often sidetrack me from what I’m needing to be present for and truly save within my heart.

I have struggled this year with anger, frustration and loss. I have also found deep meaning and profound balance. I have found peace in solitude as well as my way back to interest in connecting with people of my own choosing. I have felt weak, sad, and alone but less lonely. I have felt fierce, strong, and confident.

My experiences have been many… there has been much self reflection and following of inner guidance. I have felt an incredible shift within myself and the collective as a whole. I’ve closed the year sharing a level of vulnerability that I have frequently been too uncomfortable to share, only to find my greatest strength.

Although the last few years of contemplation and self awareness work have been necessary and much needed. (Much like a winter slumber or change of season) I feel it is time for activity and movement… a time of positive change and fruition.

I am ever so grateful to have the new tools to appreciate one of the most heartbreaking times and then one of the most rewarding times of my life this year. (I will write on these at a different time when prompted to do so) Instead at this moment I am being asked to share this broader reflection and message of a year ending and a new year beginning.

My desire is to add positive energy to this year.. I hope to continue to grow more personally and increase the opportunities for sharing of my gifts of support and guidance to those that wish to have my assistance.

This year I encourage us all to spread kindness not gossip
Share love not hate
Allow all feelings, let go of the outcomes and enjoy the experiences by being present in each and every moment.

I hope you will join me…
Peace, Love, and Blessings to one and all

Shiela

Declutter

Decluttering

By Shiela Reed

The energies have been coming on strong for over a month now and may feel pretty intense to just throw everything away and start over. Yet there is also a bit of a nagging to “hang on” to everything “just in case”!

That can actually be rather anxiety provoking. I have felt it and have had to remind myself daily to check in with my inner self and allow myself to take a little time to determine if I am functioning on fear or everyone else’s energy rather than my own true prompts.

I’m not gonna lie, it’s hard sometimes!!! It can feel like all or nothing at once. We run or freeze or get angry for no reason due to the underlying “frustration” that we probably don’t recognize.

So far the best things I’m doing are literally stopping what I’m doing and sit still for a few minutes (or more) and breath, relax a little (preferably outside or at least somewhere quiet and non distracting or cluttered with stuff or “feelings”).

Then when I ask myself “do I want to really do this now?” – (funny because I literally just had a wasp land on me out of the blue and get my attention to look up her symbolism as a new totem animal/messenger and it’s very much about new beginnings, focusing on what I want and is important to me as well as becoming more clear on the expressions of myself as I shift and change in the new process I’m going through) i.e. welcome to this website and blog! 🙂

Anyway, to continue 😉 – sometimes the answer might be, “no” never, no not right now, yes now, yes, but adjust a little… etc. Regardless, just listen… follow your prompting. Breath and release through the fear and anxiety. Close your eyes, the visions and views they see can be distracting. Take your time. You may even need to leave it be and come back to it later. Insert a healthy physical distraction maybe, like a walk, a nap, a scenic drive…

In the end, give yourself permission to follow your own guidance.

Also know that the “clearing out and de-cluttering pull” is more than about our physical space. There is often a deeper mental and emotional clearing that is needed. We just notice the physical first in most cases because that’s where most of us are used to functioning. Plus, let’s face face it, we can “control”, manipulate, and see results of physical “stuff” right?!… that gives us a sense of accomplishment and a form of temporary relief. Which is great and even necessary at the right times. It can actually set us up for having an improved personal space to work from and go deeper on that mental and emotional “stuff”…. but don’t forget to also pay attention to that underlying part… it’s probably trying to get your attention for a reason.   So, remember to “go back there and revisit it”.

I also know this is when it’s really nice to have someone to reflect with and personally I enjoy having my own energetic support system in place to get some support to go just a little deeper into my own inner connection.   There are many out there and starting up… so just make sure it resonates with your heart.

Well, it is time to continue with some more assessment of my environment and another layer of “de-cluttering” as I too move forward with opening up my space and energetic field a bit more.

I’m trying to remember that holding on to too many things (physical things, mental things, emotional things) not only effects my energetic space and physical body, it also limits me from being as open to the new and wonderful things trying to find their way into my life. ❤

Blessings and best regards during your journey.
Shiela