A Special Tribute – A Soulmate Animal

A Heartfelt Tribute – by Shiela Reed

I would like to share a special tribute to my special dog Bosco on what would have been his 17th birthday today.  As anyone that connects to animals will know, they can hold a deeply impactful place in our hearts.  And while I easily connect to animals and nature in general and enjoy their presence, I have been profoundly impacted by this particular bond/relationship.  So much so, I hope you can also feel what I mean and strength of such a connection.  May it also provide those of you that have had similar experiences, with a bit of comfort in the words and knowing that while we love, cherish, and hold these bonds, it is ok to “let go” and allow for them to be “free” as we know the true love and memories the relationship has held will forever be tucked sweetly in the graciousness of our hearts.

Bosco tribute

{I started his “tribute” before I knew it was going to end so soon

(10-8-18)

My love for you is unmeasurable. You have taught me much about unconditional love and how just a presence can be enough. When I think of you my heart explodes with a feeling so strong that I’m overcome with emotion. It amazes me that a little animal can have this effect on me, but what it is is a true vulnerability I feel safe to allow with your little heart and I just can’t quite seem to reach that space as easily any other time. I guess that is why I consider you my “soulmate dog”.

From day one when I saw you on Pet Finder I just knew you belonged with me and I would be your person to care for you for the rest of your life. When I got to see you in real life, the bond was equally set as you jumped from that tiny crate from a van that traveled from Kansas to St Charles with many other dogs. I waited patiently as others got their dogs until finally it was my turn and then there you were! They said you were “mean”, didn’t like men, but to me it was obvious you just didn’t “trust” and you needed someone with patience and understanding to help you. You must have sensed that too as you immediately became attached to me and is how it has always been from that day forward.

You have been my most stable and consistent part of my life and I am forever grateful. I know I have given you a wonderful life and you are appreciative of it all, yet imagining life without you is a little unbearable.

I have so many stories and forever memories, as we grew and survived some of the worst and best times together. You have heard my cries, seen me tears, felt my pain, and been a solid dependable life for my heart to cling to. We have ended up going many places and being together nonstop when it was just us.

Your love for the drive thru (notably french fries) and a little cappuccino here and there were bonding food moments. There is nothing I wouldn’t share with you or do for you. I love my car rides and you ended up loving them too. You are the best travel buddy and as bonded as we have been, I could take you anywhere and know you would be close by. I’ll never forget taking you to a horse show and how I could let you walk by me without a leash and nothing distracted you from me. ❤ You would sit and watch me play ball and anywhere we were, the world was good as long as you could see me and I you.
You are one of a kind and my heart will forever be connected with yours.

I have so many stories (who wouldn’t after 16 years) –  too many to share but I’ll remember them all within my heart.  I know we are both grateful to Nana Sandy for her equally loving care of you and special times you and she had too over the years.  The lessons of life I’ve learned from our special relationship continues to unfold and I am so grateful for you.  Each day is a gift. I am trying to remember this. Your looks at me were always trying to tell me that, funny how I missed that message far too often… for that I’m sorry, “life” sometimes seems to take over and we easily forget to slow down and enjoy “the little things/times”. But I know we did our best and we have had a wonderful life together.  Yet, I still would wish to have extra time with you.. To pet your head, be near, sit on the couch, hear you snore, and be still. Even when you would pace around and follow me and my crazy chaotic mornings all you wanted by the end of the day was for me to sit on the couch with you and just be close.. and I’m here.. I’ll always be here… And you will always be with me.. for that I am eternally grateful .

So here even at the end (Dec 2018) –I “hear” you. We have had many “talks” and our “agreement” is being met. When you were diagnosed with heart failure at 12 you agreed to stay until after you were 16. You have kept that… not always totally easy, but we kept “checking in” and agreed it was ok to keep going. We also agreed when the time came I would “be with you”. Which is what I did during your last week, until our last goodbye. We also agreed we needed to be at home – and you would go on your own.  That too was met… we remained open to a backup plan of someone coming here to help the transition IF needed, but it wasn’t necessary… we did it and it was just “us” as always… I am here, I will always be here and know part of you will always live in my heart.

Although you are gone, I feel the ways you will remain with me.
Despite the days that pass, I still miss you
I know this heartache… I’ve decided it’s a small price to pay for the pure joy, unconditional love, and life lessons you have given in return.
How blessed I’ve been to know such companionship. Thank you always for picking me to be your person.

Peace to you my Bosco –  my “soulmate dog”.}

Bosco
His watchful eye always upon me.

Thank you for allowing me to “let go” a little more and tuck a bit more of the pain of his loss into the safety of my heart space.

Much love and peace

Shiela

May Message of the Month – Love of Self

by Shiela Reed

“I may not be loved by all but I am loved by some. Source of my creation loves me and I am free to love myself.” I Am…

I find myself thinking often about the importance of loving ourselves and what that means and how true it is that it’s important to learn to “love ourselves first, so we can really connect to the love of another”.

I know there are “loves” outside of ourselves that may be deep and feel very intense. Maybe we would even “lay down our own lives” for that other… those are truly intense and may very well be connected as I’m trying to describe. But what I guess I’m thinking of and trying to describe is how far would we go for OURSELVES? Our true “hearts desire” and that guidance from within, where our true self is connected to our creator. Do we know what that really feels like? It’s the epitome of feeling connected to all creation. From God/source of creation to all aspects of the seen and unseen world straight to ourselves and how we “fit in” and are so very much a part of the whole.

See when we scale back and look from a “distance” as an observer, we start to see the many pieces fitting together to make the whole. And what a beautiful feeling of LOVE this creates as we sense the connectedness, even in our “less than lovable” times. Because we are also then able to see others in this same light. As vulnerable beings trying to “protect” our egos from what is deemed to be unsafe and/or pains of the world. At this moment of “compassion” we find we truly feel ALIVE and just maybe, truly “worthy” of love… from ourselves as well as others.

As I write this I can literally feel the expansion of my heart chakra and believe with all intention that this message of the month will create a similar expression for each who reads it.

Find the peace and serenity of this space in glorious self love that is not self-ish, but self-fulfilling and bound in the connectedness to others yet free to allow self expression from each of our souls.

And so it is…
“I may not be loved by all but I am loved by some. Source of my creation loves me and I am free to love myself. I Am…”

Blessings

Shiela

March Message of the Month: Stay Grounded in love and light with Mother Earth

by Shiela Reed

March 6th first que- to this message

This is how we make it through. Several of my other mentors are talking about it and in my inner being I can feel the resonance of this truth.
I’m part of multiple things at play in the world right now. Just as you are. I choose them in different degrees actually. Some are for my own soul growth and expansion while others are interactions that are assisting others through their own journeys. Some of those are definitely more lovely and enjoyable than others. However, there is still purpose in it all.

I find the reminder to be hugely impactful right now as there is a “next layer” I need to personally journey through and that is my body and food. As the energies shift so strongly right now and we move into the crystalline grid system, I feel my body having a hard time adjusting sometimes. I have noted that a dietary change is in order, but my mind/ego has not wanted to let go of that old connection. I’m continuing to work through this journey because I also know it is necessary for my body system to sustain me. Yet that draw to “not change” eating habits and choices is becoming more and more painfully obvious how outdated they are.
Of course I’m trying to give myself room and lots of grace to get there, but my ego mind is already trying to spin it as “if it won’t matter that much” if I don’t change anything. My inner self immediately says “inaccurate”.. so.. it’s time, like it or not.
So I’m needing to go all the way back to how I feel about food. How and why I eat what I do and notice how it’s different if it’s just me or when I’m with someone else…

Does this resonate with anyone else? This late in the month and I’m still struggling and even had health kind of issues so it amazes me at how blocked we can remain and no amount of “willing it” is the answer. Sometimes it truly is the work of going layer by layer until there is a release, and then of course we find… yes, you guessed it! More layers through to even deeper connections. 😊

Yet every time at every layer, the grounding in natural Earth energies is found to be comforting and uplifting. As the gentle (yes and sometimes harsh) reminder that the universe and natural order of things unseen prevail while the more connected and aware we become to this, we find a deeper connection to our inner selves and relationship with the divine.

I hope you have all found ways to ground in love and light with mother earth this month..if not, there is still plenty of time.
Happy slightly belated spring equinox. 🌻☀️

blessings

Shiela

November Message of the Month – The Power of Love/”Prayer”/Combined Energy with Intent

by Shiela Reed

The regular theme for this month has been about Love – and the appearance of “different forms” – yet as we find the root of the intentions, the ones done with the “love” and of “trust – in divine right timing” with the collaboration of the two is what has been swirling around this month.  I wrote this earlier in the month and had not posted it and find today that it seems to fit with the “theme”…. so it is shared with you out of heartfelt gratitude and love as the message of the month.  I truly hope you have found your way through this month and find these words and the heart and love behind it, as the “cherry on top” for November….

I have and ALWAYS will believe in the power of “prayer”/good vibes/ love intended energy… whatever you want to call it… at the same time I am fully aware and also believe in “divine right timing”… so.. how does that fit together? Let me share a personal example….
Today (Nov 11 2018) my very elderly dog, Bosco, who has been with me through MUCH in life.. good and really not good… 16+ years worth at this point mind you… he is my “soulmate dog”.
Well, he woke up and had a new “issue”… his back right hip went out just while walking across the floor. To sum this up, here are his “issues”: separation anxiety most of his life (he is a rescue dog and has been with me since age 1 – our life together is yet another story ?)
heart failure (meds since age 12),
Chronic Dislocated back left knee
And today this…

I share this to also create a story for you… I full well know and realize he will not be with me forever. Which is true of anyone or anything, ourselves included. So, while we KNOW this, I myself continue to be amazed at how I can still get so “off center”, that I am not present for today’s joy’s in my current life and become so enveloped with fear. Yet, embracing and then releasing the pains of the future that tend to so easily trap me in fear and worry is not as easy as “a wish, or desire, or words”… even knowing “nothing here we try to hold, is forever”… it takes that regular and frequent checking within, re-centering, re-grounding, and “catching it” before it goes into a “loop”…

I was already in a loop from the previous week, which was already added on to by the previous week… and I “knew” I had some things to “tend to”, but I chose to “put it aside”, wait, do it differently, I really don’t know.. except my inner me told me to address it back then, and I didn’t. My ego/mind latched on to the “fears” and away we went with story after story of “what if’s”…

So flash forward to today and this event…

I was in tears, I feared the worst, even knowing “if it’s time, it’s time, there is nothing I can do about it”… I did my best to allow myself to feel the fear, say it out-loud, let it fly into the wind, and accept what was to be, without having to “know it” right now. Of course I found myself wanting to “control”.. but what this situation did do was force a shift on me that desperately needed to be released…so, as it started to “unfold”, I felt my heart reference point say “let go of the pain”… this one situation is NOT what this is all about….
I then knew from my heart that my intentions for asking friends and loved ones for “prayers/good vibes” was to request the energetic support for me and Bosco to go through WHATEVER was to be next…
That is exactly what I believe these “requests” are about. A true self asking other true selves for “support” in a time of need… even when asking for something specific, our inner selves already are connected to the Divine and knows what we need… the mind just wants to be involved… so, even though we “pray” for healing and may mentally have an opinion about what that looks like, deep within, when we truly trust and have faith… we know whatever comes, is simply meant to be. We just may not be able to see the type of “healing” that we actually “really” need.

So, as I let go, and allowed for whatever support came forward to come to me and Bosco… I was able to release the majority of the previous several weeks worth of “stuff” and be in a place I needed to be, so I could lovingly be present in this important moment for me, my current situation and my honored relationship with my sweet furry companion.

As we went to the vet, Bosco was calm, and I knew within it was all “ok”.. whatever that ended up looking like, didn’t matter as much anymore. I surrendered… today, the news was not catastrophic, there were options, possible solutions, and while that made my mind stay on the background, I felt in my heart, the whole event was needed for healing… not just in Bosco…

And with that, I find great humbleness and gratitude in the power of “prayer”… I was not “alone”, the “energy field” of lovingness and truth was all around, and I felt safe to be present in my space, in each moment, with him and each situation the rest of the day.
Thank you friends for “holding space” for us today… know I will always intend to do the same for you.
Much love
Shiela

August message of the month – Embrace the Journey –

By Shiela Reed

Sometimes looking around and appreciating where we have come from is more important than being “right” in a debate or discussion. Whether with ourselves or others, what if instead of being aggravated or “disappointed” or angry, we were appreciative, humbled, and excited about how far we have come in our life? Whether leaps and bounds or tiny steps – it doesn’t really even matter the “direction”… our labeling and judgement about it is what gets us side tracked and we end up missing the true point in our journey.

While we are here to grow and learn and have a physical experience in our humanness and there is individuality in that, we also are part of a larger collective (society, communities, etc.) that very much impacts our world.
I often think about my own experiences and the impacts they have had on my journey and find even the hardest of them I have found appreciation for. It’s a beautiful thing to be able to see the growth we gain from the difficulties we encounter.

Similarly when we can appreciate the same flow of nature and our world… acknowledging that without rain, there is no growth or life. Without some natural “destruction” there is no “rebuilding” (i.e. fires, hurricanes, tornadoes). The earth system naturally will “rebalance” and it’s not about the “good or bad” of it.
It’s what ends up happening “with it” and after it that counts. Which way will it go? What is the overall reaction?

Nature and Earth – Gaia – will “balance” out. Our own energetic reactions is part of it all as well… if we (individually and/or collectively) react in extreme ways, there will be counter reactions from elsewhere too. It’s as if what we “create” gets “fed” and grows… panic, worry, fear, hostility… just as will safety, peace, comfort, and love. As we go through our own individual journeys and find our ways to become “balanced” (which is that ebb and flow of all the emotions in a closer, smoother and “truer” to our heart center) we can find a sense of peace here.

We will naturally know this state of being… it’s from where we came… embracing the journey through it all is when we can find peace and acceptance in allowing ourselves and others to truly be in harmony, despite our different paths.

As “kumbaya” as this all sounds, the realities of the facts are, not everyone will see it this way, and their journey may appear to be in conflict with our own. Take note and make your own boundaries as respectfully as can be done, and determine your own choices and own them.
At the end of it all, YOU are responsible for YOU and where your journey has been and where it is headed, all based on your moment by moment choices each day.

So, I hope you deeply embrace your journey from your heart, are open to the acceptance of your past by releasing all judgement, and gain exitment in allowing for your future to unfold without fear or restriction.
Much love and blessings
Shiela