August Message of the Month: Taking Care of Self

by Shiela Reed

It’s very interesting how all the “little messages” throughout the month have been related to taking care of ourselves.  So it must mean that the full message of the month this month needs to be about pulling that all together and finding our own “take-aways” regarding – self-care.

At the beginning of the month – I officially started a new journey of following through with years of “hints” about the importance of re-connecting my physical body back with my mental, emotional, spiritual, and etheric selves.  I had a very distinct inner prompting that NOW was the time to do this…  Over the years my physical body took kind of a backseat to my other efforts and for me, well, that’s just how it needed to be I suppose.  It’s funny because odd little ailments would pop up over the years and kind of “force me” to stay out of my usual “physical mode”. In the past I was very much connected to all things “physical” and while of course there are always components of all of these other areas present – often times I would  feel a bit “heavy” or “depleted” in certain areas over others. This easily happens for many of us and while I have been on my own personal journey to balance these out, I have found that the energetic work I have experienced and done has significantly supported bringing things into proper balance and most importantly – assisted me in gaining the much needed reference points for recognizing when things felt like they were going “off tract” prior to it becoming a crisis.

Of course this has taken and continues to take “practice” and regular personal “check-ins” with myself to assure that I am still functioning within my own inner awareness and thus be able to follow my inner promptings without the usual layers of doubt our minds like to throw in the mix… as I’ve said before, it really is a place we just “know” and will recognize once we have that experience… we just have to be able to be in a space that allows us to “hear” it and then recognize that we need to make an immediate adjustment before we spiral too far one way or the other.

This has especially been true of anxiety and depression related symptoms.  Today this topic came as something to expand upon further next month, but know that it is very much how and why so many of us suffer from one or usually BOTH!  We just “miss” our cues to stop the spiral and we get “caught” – until we can find our way out again… this has basically become nonexistent for me anymore thanks to the totality of efforts to balance the mental and emotional and finally the energetic which allowed for ultimate relief.  In the past these states could last for days, weeks, or months.  Obviously this has allowed for very significant changes to occur in my life and is directly related to the multiple parts of self-care I have utilized.

While we learn to catch “cues” – there is another interesting component to taking care of ourselves that came in regarding the importance and need for reflection – but also utilizing that same sense of awareness mentioned above.   I know it often seems important and even necessary to reflect on past life events but I have also been reminded this month that while it is helpful to” look back” – it is important to be aware of why we are doing so.  As an emotional component of self-care – it is crucial to understand the connection this has to our mental and energetic states.  A question that popped up this month regarding this is “am I looking back out of some form of fear?  Or to gain clarity or understanding about a life lesson?”  We will know this by noticing how we “feel” about it or what we “sense” about it – i.e. are we learning and “moving on” or are we dwelling and lamenting over memories?  Some good food for thought…

Overall I have noticed many conversations this month revolving around the importance of “well-being”.  Local gym’s trying to help people get physically fit, local yoga studio’s trying to help guide mental/emotional parts of us with our bodies, spiritual components are found in different forms offering different perspectives for contemplation and I’m even finding my new personal website trying to work on reflecting this concept of how it all connects as the vision of that deepens.  What I have experienced is that a pivotal part of keeping our overall system balanced is realizing that there is an energetic/etheric component to it all and by learning to keep our energy body well – we find deeper connections to the real reason we want to put importance on keeping our physical body well, and our mind emotionally well and our soul spiritually well.  I find the use of energy supporting techniques to be vital to keeping up my energetic immunity and therefore find myself less likely to take on/absorb other energies that are negative and would normally be depleting of my own system.  This has been a new and recent realization and a wonderful take away from my own forever journey to overall well-being.

Clearly, there is a need for balance of each and every aspect of our human existence.  It’s important to remember that they are all connected and being able to discern our own inner promptings about when to adjust is ultimately the goal.  After-all, when we can feel this centered place within us, we find we are much less likely to be caught in extremes one way or the other and more able to function and flow more peacefully throughout our daily lives.

I want to also share something that came in this month as a reminder for those of us that may tend to talk ourselves out  of “taking care of ourselves” –( for whichever number or reasons)  As I thought about my broader “journey” and a desire to help others and how that connects with my personal “journey” of helping myself become a truer version of myself – I also found that I felt some thoughts of “selfishness” – thank goodness my inner connection quickly helped me realize that what I was talking about regarding “taking care of myself” was actually not selfish at all!  In reality it is the best way I/we can be and thus be in positions to help others.  As I had asked my higher self – “what would be the most important focus in regards to helping others and myself/ourselves” – and the answer was “to continue to be focused on me and my journey and the self-love that shines forth will be what helps others to see – not any one particular thing I would “do”.

I am sure this is true of each of us…we are each important to ourselves first and then how we are connected to the world around us.  So focus on you and listen to what your system tells you you need.  Remember there is an ebb and flow of each component.  Changes and adjustments are often needed and are ok along the way.  May you find a solid connection to your inner compass (your true you) by learning to utilize your energy body and connecting within to continue your own journey to well-being and balanced.

And so it is…

Shiela

July Message of the Month: Sharing about Choices

Sharing about Choices…

by Shiela Reed

Once again there is a message about the importance of our choices…
While there was a lot going on in July energetically, it will continue into Aug… It’s important to remember that it can be “better” and it can be “worse” based on our individual choices. This concept and processing of choices comes up again and again in different forms and from different perspectives. As stated before it matters about where our awareness is and where our alliance is.  Is it within our heart or outside of ourselves?

Today I was prompted to share my personal journal entry of the day which just so happens to tie in to this topic on choices… I hope you enjoy the way it came in for me and you find a connection to it as well.

{ Lots of changes energetically the last week or so. Shifts within relationships have been better. I have been more involved with energy working which helps me so much to remain grounded and my soul to feel that I’m “listening”.
Yet, sometimes I end up feeling like I have to force myself to move in the direction of what I think I “believe” my soul self is saying (ego trick) yet I know that is not the way it works. It’s what I call a “doing loop” I often get caught in. Even when I decide to “not do” it feels weird and so much chatter starts in my head, judging.. So it’s been a learning experience for sure.
Today I woke to really feeling this lovely inviting energy opening my eyes further about possibilities and good things in the future. It warms me to being excited and embracing the newness. I seriously feel like all I want to do right now is actually PARTICIPATE in life and go out and have new experiences and see my current ones with fresh eyes.
 It’s a really cool feeling!
It reminds me of the excitement of newness and how that increases the energy needed to actually get something done. Yet I also know (and remember) that in the past this has taken me into another part of the “doing loop” which leads to overwhelm and anxiety. Often increasing feelings of inadequacy and a lack of worthiness.
And sometimes it crashes into the opposite side of the loop – of doing nothing – leading to depression and despair and a different flavor of inadequacy and lack of worth.
With both of these I now more often see doubts and fears attached and try to remember and realize it is due to not being in this present moment. Instead I’m maybe energetically a bit too far forward or backward rather than connecting to the inner guidance and trusting in what is here and “next”.
Interesting…. I have noticed now that I get to this place, I begin to “mentalize” it and try to plan and control it… by saying things like “well, if I just go skipping around picking daisies all day, then not a damn thing will get done!” – lol which is true (to an extent)
Or if I push and am hard core working non stop on list after list just to make it to another list.. I’m exhausted and angry and have no joy or peace. (Been there done that, so that one is much easier to let go of these days as I’ve learned to let go of much of that MOST times anyway 😊)
So.. here I am still working on balance. Which is where I always seem to connect back to my “choices”. Moment to moment- situation to situation- thought to thought. I’m learning to try more often to stop at the beginning and ask “what is this choice connected to?” – my heart and a future self, a past – and just a memory- or is it meant as a reminder of a lesson?
While yes there is no reason to “over analyze” – it is kind of important to ease our human systems into this zone of “stillness” so we can actually “think/feel”- with our inner self energy body.
For me I feel like this is why I’ve learned the way I have in this lifetime. I know what it has felt like to be “go go go crazy busy – don’t sit still – do it – get it done- do it better” and found that is not conducive to my ability to hear my true soul self! Instead I need stillness in all capacities and more and more these days I am the one that MUST create that for myself.
But I am so glad and thankful I even started recognizing that need… many many years ago in therapeutic processes, AA, and ongoing life experiences. What a blessing to be at this point of the journey and have bright eyes today to see opportunities and a promise for a better tomorrow- rather than sadness and defeat.
No, it is NOT always this way… yes things can always be “worse” just as they can always be “better”; just as the night turns to day – we can all hopefully find ways to connect to the openness that change can bring – choice by choice – no matter how small.
Embrace the joy in all those moments- the small and the great. Allow them to be markers for our journeys path. Find peace and gratitude in our aliveness and an ability to have open eyes that are bright with a child like excitement to learn and grow and explore. }
May I and each of you find that now…
Peace, love and blessings
Shiela

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A Day of Contemplation

Messages from today – by Shiela Reed

Ever have those days when you feel like you should be somewhere else but you don’t know exactly where?
That’s me today, June 4 2019
I am trying to listen inward, yet focus on current tasks, and it’s all getting jumbled. Like the wires and signals are getting crossed. Sure makes it hard to “hear” and feel my true needs… much less really focus on an actual task.
As I contemplate whatever comes forward. I notice that there is a lot of “messages/information” available and I want so badly to just spend my day “zoning out” – but then write it down as certain things come in.
In my personal “perfect world” – that’s exactly what I’d do, maybe nap a little, take a walk, go for a ride with no set destination, go on a trail, go to a park or garden… and just jot down information.
What I’ve noticed next is that I kind of feel like I want to share the information, but then it’s hard because I also feel like I’m needing to be mindful of the importance for me to personally limit the use of the social media piece… it’s a strange thing to contemplate for balance. Being truly connected vs a fake sense of connection. What seems to be coming in for me is to ask myself BEFORE engaging in social media what my intent is and then create and stick with a boundary I set based on that. I’m finding this is a lot harder than it sounds! So for example getting on long enough to post a link to my energy work I want to share instead of “browsing” and wasting so much time I end up not spending time writing at all!
I’m not sure yet exactly what that means or the direction it is trying to take me… but to me it’s just another example of how I’m finding myself in a regular state of “contemplation”.
For example another piece of information that came in is the reason I hold on to things/stuff is to “have a memory”. Even though I already know I already have what I need from the “thing” or event or whatever… the parts needed are automatically “kept”/stored for my “use”/reference at a cellular level, so a physical memory is not always exactly necessary… that is probably more for a “feeling” – and thus reinforcing the false sense that we need to “hold” onto feelings for something to be “real”… interesting eh?

So what things are coming forward for you? One of my energy mentors Jona Bryndis wrote an amazing energy forecast for June that I’m already noticing a ton of things happening before I even watched it myself!

https://youtu.be/U2fBcSKYb1Y

So I hope you too enjoy and find some support this month. It appears it will be a busy one so I suspect there will be much to write about.

Be well..
Peace
Shiela

DIGGING UP THE PAST TO KNOW MY ENERGY by Bryan Moss

When I began to learn about energy work I was surprised to find out that in order to really be proficient at it (whether reading my own or others) I needed to be willing to look at my past. The good, the bad, and even the very ugly.

Why?

Well, to spell it out in basic steps:

*We’re born as energetic beings right off the bat! This is our divine right. Feeling and reading energies is a basic skill set, just as speaking is to most. We are born to read energies!

* However, while being raised and taught by others (parents, teachers, caretakers) we’re influenced by THEIR interpretation of life. What THEY learned. What THEY think is best for us as we’re growing up. Good, or not so good, many of these “lessons” were ingrained in our ‘caretakers’ way of life back when THEY were young whipper snappers.

*What happens is, as we grow up, anything taught is either consciously on our minds AND/OR stored in our subconscious, and forgotten about by our conscious minds. Events, emotions not expressed, rules, regulations, all of the “how to’s”….EVERYTHING is stored there. We take the ‘caretakers’ words for granted. Like their ways and means is the law of life, we accept them as the only truths without questioning them.

*When adulthood comes upon us, often we feel conflicted about certain feelings we’re having in regards to relationships and experiences. When a different view, or mind set, is presented to us one can start to feel confused and mixed up. Perhaps “things” just don’t make sense. Yet we feel a pull to honor our teachings because we were raised “that way”. So we immediately dismiss, or negate, anything that “goes against the grain” in spite of our inner promptings which are making us question those very ways.

*It’s well known throughout the health community those buried, unacknowledged emotions can create a host of “problems”. Mental illness, physical symptoms, dysfunctional relationships are a few examples. Along with all of this we’re trying to discern what’s of use to us, or not useful and can be discarded.

I’ll give a couple of examples from my own journey to help illustrate how it’s beneficial to look at past programming instilled in us:

Recently, I recalled being around 4 or 5 and was angry and upset with my mother earlier that day. I decided I was going to run away. So I loaded up my radio flyer red wagon with my favorite toys in my bedroom, rolled it through the living room and out the front door while my mom was gossiping on the phone in the kitchen to one of the next door neighbors. She assumed I was going out front to play. I rolled my red wagon of toys as far as half way down the block, got scared, turned around, and went back home. At this time I don’t remember what I was mad about and that really isn’t important. But what is important is for me to acknowledge I had anger towards my mother even at that age. I was too young to express it constructively and thought I just had to get away from her. So I used the “flight” response in order to cope with my anger. Not knowing how to release the anger it was shoved to the side and forgotten about..buried. So it’s tossed into the “piggy bank of anger” and accumulates interest stored as anger towards not only my mother, but, unintentionally, can affect my views towards women in general. This can certainly create the perfect set up for a dysfunctional relationship with any future partner down the road. It’s impossible to discern specific anger issues in another until I’ve become familiar with feeling my own anger.

Another example is how it was ingrained in me that whatever problem or question I had, I needed to look outside of me for answers. Rather than figure it out myself, or even suggested to me that many answers are already within, I was taught to go to an “expert”. They would know better than me–about me. Externalization is promoted in collective society. Being taught to look to others for answers indirectly disempowers ones own innate, God given right to look within. Religion is a great example of this. One has to go through a middle man (clergy, priest, minister, rabbi..) in order to learn and communicate with God (higher power). Often it’s not encouraged for one to go about their spiritual journey without the approval of others. As mentioned in the previous example, it’s all of the programming and trained responses drilled into us, so much so, we begin taking on a false identity to appease others to make them happy. Before you know it you’ve become a person that the “real you”, your True Self, doesn’t really know but patiently puts up with knowing that the time will eventually come when you realize most everything you thought was the law of the land is, at best, all backwards and full of bullocks. Programmed to follow along with the collective herd, you never took the time to discover those “rules and ways” yourself, thus, never getting to know the essence of YOU, your inherited True Self. The Self that is already complete with the peace, love and any of the bells and whistles you may need. You start to figure out the journey isn’t about learning and accumulating more paradigms. It’s about getting rid of all of that and getting back to the basics you were born with…your True Self.

Re-experiencing (meaning NOT conceptualizing but FEELING it out) and accepting the fact those events happened to me allows the experience to go through me instead of hanging on to it by hiding it in the corners of my mind and trying to put it out of my memory. You see? By ignoring those feelings I was throwing gasoline onto those simmering embers where the inevitable spontaneous combustion was, and is, bound to happen ( as suggested above in the various forms of illnesses and dysfunctional behaviors). Over time, I’ve been willing to “let my guard down” and feel into the uncomfortable memories/ experiences in my past. I found that stripping away all of the conditioned and programmed B.S. actually allows me to feel more and ACCEPT what happened to me, not ignore it. Thus enabling me to get to know my self, True Self, better. Is this easy to do? NO. My critical inner voice, or ego (as other energy workers refer to it), kicks, screams, and throws temper tantrums because it’s sole purpose is to feel safe and survive at any cost, including preventing me from feeling and experiencing life fully with my Heart, the doorway to understanding my own energies.

I hope my examples may provide you with a clearer idea why we all should be willing to look into our past. Not to remind ourselves what injustices may of happened, but as a learning tool of accepting those experiences and enabling us to know ourselves (energies) a little bit better as we move forward on our own Heart felt journeys. It’s in the understanding of the lessons from our past, we can let go and grow. Grow into the expansive energy field of compassion and empathy for Self and others.

Digging up the past to utilize as a lesson, and NOT to dwell on it and cave into self shame, guilt, anger, (nor the popular mental gymnastics “could ofs, would ofs, should ofs”) is actually a very powerful energy modality for one’s growth.

Excuse me while I go to the hardware store and purchase a big snow shovel.

A personal “share” for “energy friends”…

A personal journal share by Shiela Reed

This post is a bit different from the others as it has a bit more “energy worker” lingo in it so for those that “get that”… maybe you can relate.  For those that are just starting to “relate”… I hope this resonates at a deeper level and opens more paths of personal awareness for you…

I’ve been in this interesting space the last couple weeks. During my vacation last week I found myself in what felt like “the void”. It was a most beautiful time of replenishment. My mind had planned to spend time being “creative” but my system really needed stillness and “presentness”, so that’s what I did. It helped a lot to re-strengthen my awareness as it was starting to be a little cloudy with mind chatter overlay. I’m really noticing my physical body feelings now when these things shift and occur which is really cool! I am noticing so much of the “inner conversations” that used to occur without my awareness and now I am able to interject, redirect, or even stop if it is not matching my heart at the moment or something I don’t purposely choose (I still choose ego stuff sometimes but am more conscious of it most days) 😊

It’s just been difficult to “rejoin” my physical world this time though. It’s hard to explain. It felt different. Like I chose to be “back”… yet there was no feeling of “down/despair/disappointment” nor any “high/giddiness/excitement”… just a feeling of being fully present in my body and my moment. Noticing, acknowledging and accepting it all. It felt so different physically I kind of didn’t want to move. At one point (maybe last night) I noticed my 5th and 6th chakras were too wide open and “information” was dumping in so fast it kind of gave me a slight headache. It also made my mental mind overload so I had to ask those areas to close up some!

Anyway, it’s been different and I wanted to share. My mind and ego parts are sure trying to judge and play that game with me about “not doing or being enough”… but I’m keeping it called into the light of my heart for the most part which has helped me “process” from that space. The main issue seems connected to knowing I have “knowledge” of things I can do, but I have both a feeling of “I want to, but I don’t want to”… so I’m still working through some new layers of where that is coming from. How I want it to look but not be so controlling about it all.. it’s so interesting to “wrestle” with how to have front end (projected) motivation and desire without the ego leading it. That now seems obvious as to why that is “together”, but my point is a bit of why I suspect changes have not really transitioned, my “passion” part isn’t fully active anywhere yet… or does it really have to be? Maybe that’s another form of an ego trap! Jeesh I have talked myself into a circle now. Lol.

Well, regardless, I have definitely found some new information behind it, so I’ll see where that leads me next. To be continued…

love and light,

Shiela

A New Year Reflection of 2018 – by Shiela Reed

A year in review.. while there have been majorly significant events occur in my personal life, it has also been a year of major shifting of energies for everyone across time and space.

Our world is always changing and while there have been large shifts in history, this year is one of them for us in this lifetime. While this time is one of transformation, we all are feeling the mental, emotional, and even physical effects of the energetic shifts of the universe that we do not “see”… there is a HOPE for a future of peace.

There is such a natural desire to reflect and ponder on our year(s) past, while also dreaming into the next year and our future ones. Yet innately we know we cannot linger in either place too long. The memories of the past and the activities of the future only exist TODAY. And this is when we create our new awareness.

While it is important to have our moments and live in the experiences full of all kinds of emotions, I am reminded that my fears of losing memories and/or of not being able to control an outcome often sidetrack me from what I’m needing to be present for and truly save within my heart.

I have struggled this year with anger, frustration and loss. I have also found deep meaning and profound balance. I have found peace in solitude as well as my way back to interest in connecting with people of my own choosing. I have felt weak, sad, and alone but less lonely. I have felt fierce, strong, and confident.

My experiences have been many… there has been much self reflection and following of inner guidance. I have felt an incredible shift within myself and the collective as a whole. I’ve closed the year sharing a level of vulnerability that I have frequently been too uncomfortable to share, only to find my greatest strength.

Although the last few years of contemplation and self awareness work have been necessary and much needed. (Much like a winter slumber or change of season) I feel it is time for activity and movement… a time of positive change and fruition.

I am ever so grateful to have the new tools to appreciate one of the most heartbreaking times and then one of the most rewarding times of my life this year. (I will write on these at a different time when prompted to do so) Instead at this moment I am being asked to share this broader reflection and message of a year ending and a new year beginning.

My desire is to add positive energy to this year.. I hope to continue to grow more personally and increase the opportunities for sharing of my gifts of support and guidance to those that wish to have my assistance.

This year I encourage us all to spread kindness not gossip
Share love not hate
Allow all feelings, let go of the outcomes and enjoy the experiences by being present in each and every moment.

I hope you will join me…
Peace, Love, and Blessings to one and all

Shiela

A FEATHERED MESSENGER by Bryan Moss

A bird saved my life! Yes, you read this right. A tiny bird, like the size of a wren, saved my life. On a Thursday, after work, I was running an errand. The only parking spot from the store I was shopping at was a couple of blocks down from it. After parallel parking I was walking on the sidewalk and getting ready to cross a side street…. to continue walking towards my destination. At the edge of the curb of the street was a telephone pole’s shadow crossing the end of the sidewalk along that curb..Just as I was about to cross into the shadow and step off the curb, “Chirp!”, I noticed a tiny dark “blob” move from the side of the sidewalk towards me, coming from within the pole’s shadow. I stopped and noticed it was a wren. “Chirp” exclaimed the wren. She was looking up at me. Then she took a couple of more tiny steps and flew off. “WHOOSH!” A car had just then come from the main street’s side (my left) and took a fast, hard right turn cutting into the street curb I was about to walk off of!. Then it continued speeding on down that side street.
Then the realization hit me. If I hadn’t of stopped and noticed the “shadow” and heard her “Chirp!” I wouldn’t of stopped walking and probably would have been hit by that car!
I was, as they say, God smacked!!
As I reflect on this experience I’m very grateful for my fine feathered Friend/Angel. She taught/reminded this energy worker of a couple of things:

**Being Present…Reflecting on my spiritual journey there was a time when I would’ve blown off that “Chirp!” and kept walking as usual. Who knows? Maybe then I would’ve noticed the noise of that car and stopped and looked before stepping into the street? Maybe not. All I do know, on a first hand basis, is this time I noticed the “Chirp!” and looking below me was a tiny ball of a shadow within the larger shadow. Upon hearing the second “Chirp!” it registered that it was a bird, which eventually showed to be true as she walked into the sunlight. I gradually learned about the virtues of being present after I started meditating for a while. Then I found it gradually worked it’s way into other areas of my life.

**Be Supportive:…All life emanates energy and is interconnected one way or the other. Support one another, some way and some how. You don’t need a lot of money. Smile to someone as they cross paths with you. Pausing and allowing a car into the lane, even though it’s “ahead of you and then it’ll be in front of me”.

** Be Grateful Of EVERYTHING…My tactile senses seem to be more ‘sensitive’ since that day’s “saved by a bird”experience”. I’m on full ‘alert”, but not ‘alert’ in a fear based way. I guess I mean more heightened. A little hard to describe. So forgive me if I sound like a nut case.

All of these “messages” were delivered to me on my journey. Some would say God sent the little bird to save me. Others would say the bird was an angel in disguise watching over me. And yet others would comment how we’re all interconnected–trees, air, water, sky, animals, dirt, sand, flowers, grass, wind, fire, sun, moon, stars….and we’re all designed to be responsible and watch each other’s backs and be there for one another. Without prejudice, without judging, without ignoring one another. Regardless of our daily routine of distractions. Computers, cell phones, mirrors, social media, any kind of media, that tiny voice in our heads, traffic ALL have seeped into our lives slowly but surely. Becoming preoccupied in our “own” worlds we gradually loose any connection to anything alive, thus, we stop being present.
As an energy worker I view all energy as being in different levels/ways/forms (live’s experiences) while providing me the gift (lessons) of making choices. This is discernment on a whole different level.
Do I take the red pill or blue pill?
Do I blow off that piercing “Chirp!” and (without paying attention) keep walking into a speeding car?
I’m very humbled and grateful for these past hours of reflection. And humbly, I bow down to my fine feathered friend and say, “Thank you for the lessons!!”
Later gators,
Bryan

November Message of the Month – The Power of Love/”Prayer”/Combined Energy with Intent

by Shiela Reed

The regular theme for this month has been about Love – and the appearance of “different forms” – yet as we find the root of the intentions, the ones done with the “love” and of “trust – in divine right timing” with the collaboration of the two is what has been swirling around this month.  I wrote this earlier in the month and had not posted it and find today that it seems to fit with the “theme”…. so it is shared with you out of heartfelt gratitude and love as the message of the month.  I truly hope you have found your way through this month and find these words and the heart and love behind it, as the “cherry on top” for November….

I have and ALWAYS will believe in the power of “prayer”/good vibes/ love intended energy… whatever you want to call it… at the same time I am fully aware and also believe in “divine right timing”… so.. how does that fit together? Let me share a personal example….
Today (Nov 11 2018) my very elderly dog, Bosco, who has been with me through MUCH in life.. good and really not good… 16+ years worth at this point mind you… he is my “soulmate dog”.
Well, he woke up and had a new “issue”… his back right hip went out just while walking across the floor. To sum this up, here are his “issues”: separation anxiety most of his life (he is a rescue dog and has been with me since age 1 – our life together is yet another story ?)
heart failure (meds since age 12),
Chronic Dislocated back left knee
And today this…

I share this to also create a story for you… I full well know and realize he will not be with me forever. Which is true of anyone or anything, ourselves included. So, while we KNOW this, I myself continue to be amazed at how I can still get so “off center”, that I am not present for today’s joy’s in my current life and become so enveloped with fear. Yet, embracing and then releasing the pains of the future that tend to so easily trap me in fear and worry is not as easy as “a wish, or desire, or words”… even knowing “nothing here we try to hold, is forever”… it takes that regular and frequent checking within, re-centering, re-grounding, and “catching it” before it goes into a “loop”…

I was already in a loop from the previous week, which was already added on to by the previous week… and I “knew” I had some things to “tend to”, but I chose to “put it aside”, wait, do it differently, I really don’t know.. except my inner me told me to address it back then, and I didn’t. My ego/mind latched on to the “fears” and away we went with story after story of “what if’s”…

So flash forward to today and this event…

I was in tears, I feared the worst, even knowing “if it’s time, it’s time, there is nothing I can do about it”… I did my best to allow myself to feel the fear, say it out-loud, let it fly into the wind, and accept what was to be, without having to “know it” right now. Of course I found myself wanting to “control”.. but what this situation did do was force a shift on me that desperately needed to be released…so, as it started to “unfold”, I felt my heart reference point say “let go of the pain”… this one situation is NOT what this is all about….
I then knew from my heart that my intentions for asking friends and loved ones for “prayers/good vibes” was to request the energetic support for me and Bosco to go through WHATEVER was to be next…
That is exactly what I believe these “requests” are about. A true self asking other true selves for “support” in a time of need… even when asking for something specific, our inner selves already are connected to the Divine and knows what we need… the mind just wants to be involved… so, even though we “pray” for healing and may mentally have an opinion about what that looks like, deep within, when we truly trust and have faith… we know whatever comes, is simply meant to be. We just may not be able to see the type of “healing” that we actually “really” need.

So, as I let go, and allowed for whatever support came forward to come to me and Bosco… I was able to release the majority of the previous several weeks worth of “stuff” and be in a place I needed to be, so I could lovingly be present in this important moment for me, my current situation and my honored relationship with my sweet furry companion.

As we went to the vet, Bosco was calm, and I knew within it was all “ok”.. whatever that ended up looking like, didn’t matter as much anymore. I surrendered… today, the news was not catastrophic, there were options, possible solutions, and while that made my mind stay on the background, I felt in my heart, the whole event was needed for healing… not just in Bosco…

And with that, I find great humbleness and gratitude in the power of “prayer”… I was not “alone”, the “energy field” of lovingness and truth was all around, and I felt safe to be present in my space, in each moment, with him and each situation the rest of the day.
Thank you friends for “holding space” for us today… know I will always intend to do the same for you.
Much love
Shiela

CHOICES Part 2 by Bryan Moss

SCROLL DOWN AND READ CHOICES PART 1 FIRST
Choices….Picking up where I left off in Part 1, being a student (forever) of energy work I’ve come to learn there is no “good” or “bad” when it comes to energy of any type. Energy is energy. Energy has no bias or concern. Energy doesn’t judge either. Energy doesn’t decide what’s good or bad. Energy has no invested interest in the outcome. This reminds me of the argument of guns. Are they good or bad? Well, do guns have emotions and thoughts? Do they go to G.A. (well Guns Anonymous, of course)? Do they stand up during the meetings and go,” Hi. My name is “six shooter” and I killed a squirrel today.” Most of the time the answer always leads to how is the gun being used? Which leads to who’s holding it? The same thing with energy. It’s how we choose to use it…
 …which brings us back to choices. To look at choices as being a form of energy is a tough one for all of us to wrap our minds around. I know I was raised to believe in dualism. No matter what happens we always put on a label of it being good or bad. We’re conditioned into thinking/judging everything and everyone, within every situation we encounter, by that basic criteria…”good” or “bad”. As children we get “good” grades or “bad” grades. Thus, we’re ingrained with “dualism”. Dualism externalizes life in general. The word “division” comes to mind, with that age, old war strategy…”Divide and Conquer”…which is the exact opposite of “Oneness”. Dualism is really a step away from Oneness. And a step closer to ego’s passion for judgement. And of course judgement entails “good” or “bad”….
 …here’s the tricky part…I’m learning to get rid of the concepts of “good” and “bad” and to acquire the art of observing from my Heart. The divinity within our Hearts comes from unconditional Oneness. My journey within has shown me Oneness is truth. Dualism is false. My journey continues to show me choices made from my Heart gives me clarity. Choices from my mind eventually gives me confusion and doubt, where “good” and “bad” are mixed right in there. My Heart space is also where I’m held accountable for any choices along my journey. Instead of blaming others, or circumstances, I try to accept whatever is presented and, from my Heart, DISCERN the choices I should make. Discernment dispels “good’, “bad”, “right’, “wrong” and certainly “dualism”. Discerning entails aligning with what’s true for my journey on planet 3D and sorting out the programming I was raised to believe were the ways of God. As written in a previous blog of mine, “ARE YOU IN or OUT?”, the only way I’ve learned anything, in regards to my inner truth, is going within and taking an unbiased look at myself….easier said than done, but necessary. The deeper I go down the rabbit hole the more apparent it is to me that “good” or “bad” are meaningless terms/concepts. Certainly NOT the sacred rules of life, nor my personal journey. I’m learning my favorable choices are made from discernment.
 The bottom line: Under the Truth umbrella: Choices=Discernment From My Heart
 In other words, instead of relying on evidence from “out there” to give me the tools to make choices in life, I always go within my Heart and then observe any situation from there.
 And then listen….and FEEL the choice before making it. Everyone has “Heart Strings” within. Play those strings with music of introspection, learn how to discern and then choose. If it turns out to be the wrong choice? Write it up to experience and make another choice.
 My journey has been, and will continue to be, about Choices.
With Respect and Love,
Bryan