A Special Tribute – A Soulmate Animal

A Heartfelt Tribute – by Shiela Reed

I would like to share a special tribute to my special dog Bosco on what would have been his 17th birthday today.  As anyone that connects to animals will know, they can hold a deeply impactful place in our hearts.  And while I easily connect to animals and nature in general and enjoy their presence, I have been profoundly impacted by this particular bond/relationship.  So much so, I hope you can also feel what I mean and strength of such a connection.  May it also provide those of you that have had similar experiences, with a bit of comfort in the words and knowing that while we love, cherish, and hold these bonds, it is ok to “let go” and allow for them to be “free” as we know the true love and memories the relationship has held will forever be tucked sweetly in the graciousness of our hearts.

Bosco tribute

{I started his “tribute” before I knew it was going to end so soon

(10-8-18)

My love for you is unmeasurable. You have taught me much about unconditional love and how just a presence can be enough. When I think of you my heart explodes with a feeling so strong that I’m overcome with emotion. It amazes me that a little animal can have this effect on me, but what it is is a true vulnerability I feel safe to allow with your little heart and I just can’t quite seem to reach that space as easily any other time. I guess that is why I consider you my “soulmate dog”.

From day one when I saw you on Pet Finder I just knew you belonged with me and I would be your person to care for you for the rest of your life. When I got to see you in real life, the bond was equally set as you jumped from that tiny crate from a van that traveled from Kansas to St Charles with many other dogs. I waited patiently as others got their dogs until finally it was my turn and then there you were! They said you were “mean”, didn’t like men, but to me it was obvious you just didn’t “trust” and you needed someone with patience and understanding to help you. You must have sensed that too as you immediately became attached to me and is how it has always been from that day forward.

You have been my most stable and consistent part of my life and I am forever grateful. I know I have given you a wonderful life and you are appreciative of it all, yet imagining life without you is a little unbearable.

I have so many stories and forever memories, as we grew and survived some of the worst and best times together. You have heard my cries, seen me tears, felt my pain, and been a solid dependable life for my heart to cling to. We have ended up going many places and being together nonstop when it was just us.

Your love for the drive thru (notably french fries) and a little cappuccino here and there were bonding food moments. There is nothing I wouldn’t share with you or do for you. I love my car rides and you ended up loving them too. You are the best travel buddy and as bonded as we have been, I could take you anywhere and know you would be close by. I’ll never forget taking you to a horse show and how I could let you walk by me without a leash and nothing distracted you from me. ❤ You would sit and watch me play ball and anywhere we were, the world was good as long as you could see me and I you.
You are one of a kind and my heart will forever be connected with yours.

I have so many stories (who wouldn’t after 16 years) –  too many to share but I’ll remember them all within my heart.  I know we are both grateful to Nana Sandy for her equally loving care of you and special times you and she had too over the years.  The lessons of life I’ve learned from our special relationship continues to unfold and I am so grateful for you.  Each day is a gift. I am trying to remember this. Your looks at me were always trying to tell me that, funny how I missed that message far too often… for that I’m sorry, “life” sometimes seems to take over and we easily forget to slow down and enjoy “the little things/times”. But I know we did our best and we have had a wonderful life together.  Yet, I still would wish to have extra time with you.. To pet your head, be near, sit on the couch, hear you snore, and be still. Even when you would pace around and follow me and my crazy chaotic mornings all you wanted by the end of the day was for me to sit on the couch with you and just be close.. and I’m here.. I’ll always be here… And you will always be with me.. for that I am eternally grateful .

So here even at the end (Dec 2018) –I “hear” you. We have had many “talks” and our “agreement” is being met. When you were diagnosed with heart failure at 12 you agreed to stay until after you were 16. You have kept that… not always totally easy, but we kept “checking in” and agreed it was ok to keep going. We also agreed when the time came I would “be with you”. Which is what I did during your last week, until our last goodbye. We also agreed we needed to be at home – and you would go on your own.  That too was met… we remained open to a backup plan of someone coming here to help the transition IF needed, but it wasn’t necessary… we did it and it was just “us” as always… I am here, I will always be here and know part of you will always live in my heart.

Although you are gone, I feel the ways you will remain with me.
Despite the days that pass, I still miss you
I know this heartache… I’ve decided it’s a small price to pay for the pure joy, unconditional love, and life lessons you have given in return.
How blessed I’ve been to know such companionship. Thank you always for picking me to be your person.

Peace to you my Bosco –  my “soulmate dog”.}

Bosco
His watchful eye always upon me.

Thank you for allowing me to “let go” a little more and tuck a bit more of the pain of his loss into the safety of my heart space.

Much love and peace

Shiela