January 2020 Message of the Month – Balance of Past, Present, and Future

Balance of Past, Present, and Future

by Shiela Reed

Welcome to 2020! A new year and new decade!

What an amazing time to be alive! There is so much going on and I find myself embracing this life as I know it now. This is quite a bit different than how I have known things. It’s nice to actually finally feel that things are coming together.

I had been mostly aware and connected to my physical beingness as far as an outward expression, up to around 2010 and had always felt and had a very “separateness” to my inner self and awareness. I always knew it was there, and I actually always knew what it was saying, but I found myself often “ignoring it”. I kept choosing to be connected to one or the other at different points and finally realized I actually wasn’t “balanced” at all! Instead I needed to “blend” so it was one, the other, both, the same, and neither all at once.

My journey up to that point was a lot of reconciling the past, so as I went deeper into my inner soul journey and what I “thought” that needed to be, I found I really started to separate from my physical and didn’t exactly realize it. So over these years of inner work and “leaving out the physical” – I really just perpetuated a different version of the same duality. As that came more into my awareness the last couple of years I have found myself kind of naturally working on melding/blending/balancing them and naturally finding the inclusion of all my aspects. Physical, mental, emotional, spiritual/soul, energetic/etheric.
Interestingly enough, it is not until now, at this point in time, have I really felt such a cool “clearness” to this awareness and what it feels like to kind of be “together” in ONE.

So as I meditate and contemplate this season of my life and feel the awareness of my previous work and especially how the first half of this last decade began to pull together the acknowledgment that my past experiences were learning opportunities, was I able to start to be able to truly embrace and forgive myself for not “knowing everything”. I learned to allow healing of much of my “past”. And as the mid to later parts of the last decade began to show me how to begin looking at the importance of becoming more in-tune with my present self, I found myself naturally ending the last year of this decade also becoming more aware that my future self has something to contribute as well. I find a deep self healing resonance in this space as my true self shows me the creation of my own trinity of “full self”.

THIS has been the most recent work I have been doing and it is very humbling how this has shown itself to me and how the next decade of the journey for me is to be about further combining, melding, and balancing all three to feel true PEACE in my present moments.

So I feel compelled to share the message of this month, the first month of a new year and new decade- as it is time to feel balance in our past, present, and future.

As I draw from my own journey and works and the message that has come forward for this month and year, my hope is that there is something that resonates to move you one step closer to your own true purpose in your own journey.

While we all have different places we are at, there is a need for understanding and remembering that it’s all important, but just in different ways than our mind tries to understand it. I believe this is why it is difficult to write and share it sometimes.

We may know mentally that the “past is the past”, but we don’t understand why we cannot seem to “let go” of something in particular. This is the example of an energetic tie which is usually related to an element of our ego needs being met somehow. We either found safety, solace, acceptance, justification or any other number of “pay off’s” that we thought were meant to “make us feel better” or “support” us in some way.

For me, a very important turning point was being able to truly see that we do the best we can with what we have at the time and I feel that with true heartfelt compassion. While I’ve always said that and known it, I strangely realized, I had seemed to always do this much more freely with others than I could for myself. This is likely why I was drawn to being part of the helping field professions. Once I noticed this began to shift for me, it helped me see there was so much more to my “aliveness”.

I began to see the effects on my “nowness”. So this understanding that truly being PRESENT then expanded to include learning how to reconcile my own past within myself. We can see that occur for people when there is a deeper level of forgiveness that truly has “no strings attached” and it’s expression radiates with a feeling of unconditional love. When I started to feel that for myself, it was amazing the warmth and expansion I felt within.

The present became something that was “more” than it had been. It now included a healed part of me.

Today, there is a recognition that my newest understanding of “being present” also has inclusion of the future. Not as in controlling it and/or being afraid of it, which is what I found to be blocking my ability to truly to connect to it. But a similar kind of lovingness I learned to have by embracing my past.  The ability gain the balance of having a connection to my future self is equally important and necessary for me to truly be PRESENT in my current moments.

As this has also been expanding for me, I feel the beginnings of a similar shift. A space of new awareness and growth. It shows me new information about myself and the world I’m a part of. This change and paradigm shift in our present world seems to be reflecting similarly in many others. It says “balance the past and future to create the truest form of the present”.

Clearly we each have our own role/part in this process. It does not mean the present becomes “perfect”. Every “part” still contributes to the “whole”. So they won’t be the same.  So we will need to pay attention to being drawn to judgement, of self or others.  We will learn to be “ok” with different because deep down we know WE are ok too.

I am truly hopeful that as this year unfolds and the exciting new things emerge- we can all begin to see how we can each choose our parts to contribute to that “newness” and begin to do that more and more together. By combining the cool differences to create something new.  A new invention, a new theory, a new thought, a new way of life….  Even if we are different from one another.

So may your reflections on your past show you your life lessons and your true inner self show you how to be easy with yourself and others, as you learn to allow those lessons to unfold into new experiences in the present. And in these new experiences may we all be able to see the excitement of a new lesson and the opportunities it brings while not being fearful of our future.  Thus we may fully embrace being a soul with a body in this world.  And so it is…

Many blessings and hopes for a new year and decade full of building blocks that will be the solid base we each need for the bigger future.

Shiela

Thinklessness / Think-less-ness by Bryan Moss

Such a long word for such a split second, moment to moment process. All of us on auto pilot using our thinking caps. We’re always either looking ahead and anticipating what the future holds, or looking back and holding onto past experiences/memories with fondness or regrets. All of us raised and conditioned to believe that in order to resolve any situation we have to think our way out of it. We think in order to control the outcome. We think so we can out fox our creator.
Yet we never consider the consequences of being unknowingly programmed by parents, teachers and “authority figures”, to be the chess masters of our lives. Do we ever consider the stress we put ourselves through by doing this? The fears, the worries, the pressures, and the anxieties we’re constantly trying to control and minimize? Then there’s the “diagnosed” physical and mental symptoms all of this thinking can contribute to, if not flat out create. We’d like to think everything is being “done” to us. Outside circumstances are being thrown at us. Skin disorders, depression, heart attacks, high blood pressure, suicide…the list is endless.
So let me ask you and me. Is it worth it? All of this thinking? I suggest that perhaps we all need to practice the art of thinking less. We humanoids are so arrogant to believe we can think our way through life and control our outcomes so we can live happily ever after. What if it’s the other way around? What if we didn’t try to anticipate? What if we didn’t hang on to our past experiences? What if we didn’t compare the past to the present? NOT thinking would eliminate all of that.
I’ve been testing this simple exercise to stop the thinking……paying 100% attention to the present moment. As I’m currently writing the first draft of this blog, pressing ink pen to paper, I notice the formation of inked letters across the paper’s lines. I’m feeling the pressure my thumb and first two fingers use to hold the pen. I feel the slight breeze as I sit outside. Am I anticipating any future actions? No. Am I rethinking any, what’s already occurred, past experiences, misfortunes, love lives? No. Am I creating anxiety, fear, and any sort of physical discomfort? No. I’m being present and paying 100% attention to what I’m doing right now. I’m not thinking of what to write next. The words are simply flowing. I’m writing this very blog by thinking less from split second to split second. Moment to moment. Unintentionally being present.
Less thinking. Think-less-ness. Such a long  word for a split second of presence. This will give you something to think about.

A New Year Reflection of 2018 – by Shiela Reed

A year in review.. while there have been majorly significant events occur in my personal life, it has also been a year of major shifting of energies for everyone across time and space.

Our world is always changing and while there have been large shifts in history, this year is one of them for us in this lifetime. While this time is one of transformation, we all are feeling the mental, emotional, and even physical effects of the energetic shifts of the universe that we do not “see”… there is a HOPE for a future of peace.

There is such a natural desire to reflect and ponder on our year(s) past, while also dreaming into the next year and our future ones. Yet innately we know we cannot linger in either place too long. The memories of the past and the activities of the future only exist TODAY. And this is when we create our new awareness.

While it is important to have our moments and live in the experiences full of all kinds of emotions, I am reminded that my fears of losing memories and/or of not being able to control an outcome often sidetrack me from what I’m needing to be present for and truly save within my heart.

I have struggled this year with anger, frustration and loss. I have also found deep meaning and profound balance. I have found peace in solitude as well as my way back to interest in connecting with people of my own choosing. I have felt weak, sad, and alone but less lonely. I have felt fierce, strong, and confident.

My experiences have been many… there has been much self reflection and following of inner guidance. I have felt an incredible shift within myself and the collective as a whole. I’ve closed the year sharing a level of vulnerability that I have frequently been too uncomfortable to share, only to find my greatest strength.

Although the last few years of contemplation and self awareness work have been necessary and much needed. (Much like a winter slumber or change of season) I feel it is time for activity and movement… a time of positive change and fruition.

I am ever so grateful to have the new tools to appreciate one of the most heartbreaking times and then one of the most rewarding times of my life this year. (I will write on these at a different time when prompted to do so) Instead at this moment I am being asked to share this broader reflection and message of a year ending and a new year beginning.

My desire is to add positive energy to this year.. I hope to continue to grow more personally and increase the opportunities for sharing of my gifts of support and guidance to those that wish to have my assistance.

This year I encourage us all to spread kindness not gossip
Share love not hate
Allow all feelings, let go of the outcomes and enjoy the experiences by being present in each and every moment.

I hope you will join me…
Peace, Love, and Blessings to one and all

Shiela

A FEATHERED MESSENGER by Bryan Moss

A bird saved my life! Yes, you read this right. A tiny bird, like the size of a wren, saved my life. On a Thursday, after work, I was running an errand. The only parking spot from the store I was shopping at was a couple of blocks down from it. After parallel parking I was walking on the sidewalk and getting ready to cross a side street…. to continue walking towards my destination. At the edge of the curb of the street was a telephone pole’s shadow crossing the end of the sidewalk along that curb..Just as I was about to cross into the shadow and step off the curb, “Chirp!”, I noticed a tiny dark “blob” move from the side of the sidewalk towards me, coming from within the pole’s shadow. I stopped and noticed it was a wren. “Chirp” exclaimed the wren. She was looking up at me. Then she took a couple of more tiny steps and flew off. “WHOOSH!” A car had just then come from the main street’s side (my left) and took a fast, hard right turn cutting into the street curb I was about to walk off of!. Then it continued speeding on down that side street.
Then the realization hit me. If I hadn’t of stopped and noticed the “shadow” and heard her “Chirp!” I wouldn’t of stopped walking and probably would have been hit by that car!
I was, as they say, God smacked!!
As I reflect on this experience I’m very grateful for my fine feathered Friend/Angel. She taught/reminded this energy worker of a couple of things:

**Being Present…Reflecting on my spiritual journey there was a time when I would’ve blown off that “Chirp!” and kept walking as usual. Who knows? Maybe then I would’ve noticed the noise of that car and stopped and looked before stepping into the street? Maybe not. All I do know, on a first hand basis, is this time I noticed the “Chirp!” and looking below me was a tiny ball of a shadow within the larger shadow. Upon hearing the second “Chirp!” it registered that it was a bird, which eventually showed to be true as she walked into the sunlight. I gradually learned about the virtues of being present after I started meditating for a while. Then I found it gradually worked it’s way into other areas of my life.

**Be Supportive:…All life emanates energy and is interconnected one way or the other. Support one another, some way and some how. You don’t need a lot of money. Smile to someone as they cross paths with you. Pausing and allowing a car into the lane, even though it’s “ahead of you and then it’ll be in front of me”.

** Be Grateful Of EVERYTHING…My tactile senses seem to be more ‘sensitive’ since that day’s “saved by a bird”experience”. I’m on full ‘alert”, but not ‘alert’ in a fear based way. I guess I mean more heightened. A little hard to describe. So forgive me if I sound like a nut case.

All of these “messages” were delivered to me on my journey. Some would say God sent the little bird to save me. Others would say the bird was an angel in disguise watching over me. And yet others would comment how we’re all interconnected–trees, air, water, sky, animals, dirt, sand, flowers, grass, wind, fire, sun, moon, stars….and we’re all designed to be responsible and watch each other’s backs and be there for one another. Without prejudice, without judging, without ignoring one another. Regardless of our daily routine of distractions. Computers, cell phones, mirrors, social media, any kind of media, that tiny voice in our heads, traffic ALL have seeped into our lives slowly but surely. Becoming preoccupied in our “own” worlds we gradually loose any connection to anything alive, thus, we stop being present.
As an energy worker I view all energy as being in different levels/ways/forms (live’s experiences) while providing me the gift (lessons) of making choices. This is discernment on a whole different level.
Do I take the red pill or blue pill?
Do I blow off that piercing “Chirp!” and (without paying attention) keep walking into a speeding car?
I’m very humbled and grateful for these past hours of reflection. And humbly, I bow down to my fine feathered friend and say, “Thank you for the lessons!!”
Later gators,
Bryan