A personal “share” for “energy friends”…

A personal journal share by Shiela Reed

This post is a bit different from the others as it has a bit more “energy worker” lingo in it so for those that “get that”… maybe you can relate.  For those that are just starting to “relate”… I hope this resonates at a deeper level and opens more paths of personal awareness for you…

I’ve been in this interesting space the last couple weeks. During my vacation last week I found myself in what felt like “the void”. It was a most beautiful time of replenishment. My mind had planned to spend time being “creative” but my system really needed stillness and “presentness”, so that’s what I did. It helped a lot to re-strengthen my awareness as it was starting to be a little cloudy with mind chatter overlay. I’m really noticing my physical body feelings now when these things shift and occur which is really cool! I am noticing so much of the “inner conversations” that used to occur without my awareness and now I am able to interject, redirect, or even stop if it is not matching my heart at the moment or something I don’t purposely choose (I still choose ego stuff sometimes but am more conscious of it most days) 😊

It’s just been difficult to “rejoin” my physical world this time though. It’s hard to explain. It felt different. Like I chose to be “back”… yet there was no feeling of “down/despair/disappointment” nor any “high/giddiness/excitement”… just a feeling of being fully present in my body and my moment. Noticing, acknowledging and accepting it all. It felt so different physically I kind of didn’t want to move. At one point (maybe last night) I noticed my 5th and 6th chakras were too wide open and “information” was dumping in so fast it kind of gave me a slight headache. It also made my mental mind overload so I had to ask those areas to close up some!

Anyway, it’s been different and I wanted to share. My mind and ego parts are sure trying to judge and play that game with me about “not doing or being enough”… but I’m keeping it called into the light of my heart for the most part which has helped me “process” from that space. The main issue seems connected to knowing I have “knowledge” of things I can do, but I have both a feeling of “I want to, but I don’t want to”… so I’m still working through some new layers of where that is coming from. How I want it to look but not be so controlling about it all.. it’s so interesting to “wrestle” with how to have front end (projected) motivation and desire without the ego leading it. That now seems obvious as to why that is “together”, but my point is a bit of why I suspect changes have not really transitioned, my “passion” part isn’t fully active anywhere yet… or does it really have to be? Maybe that’s another form of an ego trap! Jeesh I have talked myself into a circle now. Lol.

Well, regardless, I have definitely found some new information behind it, so I’ll see where that leads me next. To be continued…

love and light,

Shiela

A New Year Reflection of 2018 – by Shiela Reed

A year in review.. while there have been majorly significant events occur in my personal life, it has also been a year of major shifting of energies for everyone across time and space.

Our world is always changing and while there have been large shifts in history, this year is one of them for us in this lifetime. While this time is one of transformation, we all are feeling the mental, emotional, and even physical effects of the energetic shifts of the universe that we do not “see”… there is a HOPE for a future of peace.

There is such a natural desire to reflect and ponder on our year(s) past, while also dreaming into the next year and our future ones. Yet innately we know we cannot linger in either place too long. The memories of the past and the activities of the future only exist TODAY. And this is when we create our new awareness.

While it is important to have our moments and live in the experiences full of all kinds of emotions, I am reminded that my fears of losing memories and/or of not being able to control an outcome often sidetrack me from what I’m needing to be present for and truly save within my heart.

I have struggled this year with anger, frustration and loss. I have also found deep meaning and profound balance. I have found peace in solitude as well as my way back to interest in connecting with people of my own choosing. I have felt weak, sad, and alone but less lonely. I have felt fierce, strong, and confident.

My experiences have been many… there has been much self reflection and following of inner guidance. I have felt an incredible shift within myself and the collective as a whole. I’ve closed the year sharing a level of vulnerability that I have frequently been too uncomfortable to share, only to find my greatest strength.

Although the last few years of contemplation and self awareness work have been necessary and much needed. (Much like a winter slumber or change of season) I feel it is time for activity and movement… a time of positive change and fruition.

I am ever so grateful to have the new tools to appreciate one of the most heartbreaking times and then one of the most rewarding times of my life this year. (I will write on these at a different time when prompted to do so) Instead at this moment I am being asked to share this broader reflection and message of a year ending and a new year beginning.

My desire is to add positive energy to this year.. I hope to continue to grow more personally and increase the opportunities for sharing of my gifts of support and guidance to those that wish to have my assistance.

This year I encourage us all to spread kindness not gossip
Share love not hate
Allow all feelings, let go of the outcomes and enjoy the experiences by being present in each and every moment.

I hope you will join me…
Peace, Love, and Blessings to one and all

Shiela

August message of the month – Embrace the Journey –

By Shiela Reed

Sometimes looking around and appreciating where we have come from is more important than being “right” in a debate or discussion. Whether with ourselves or others, what if instead of being aggravated or “disappointed” or angry, we were appreciative, humbled, and excited about how far we have come in our life? Whether leaps and bounds or tiny steps – it doesn’t really even matter the “direction”… our labeling and judgement about it is what gets us side tracked and we end up missing the true point in our journey.

While we are here to grow and learn and have a physical experience in our humanness and there is individuality in that, we also are part of a larger collective (society, communities, etc.) that very much impacts our world.
I often think about my own experiences and the impacts they have had on my journey and find even the hardest of them I have found appreciation for. It’s a beautiful thing to be able to see the growth we gain from the difficulties we encounter.

Similarly when we can appreciate the same flow of nature and our world… acknowledging that without rain, there is no growth or life. Without some natural “destruction” there is no “rebuilding” (i.e. fires, hurricanes, tornadoes). The earth system naturally will “rebalance” and it’s not about the “good or bad” of it.
It’s what ends up happening “with it” and after it that counts. Which way will it go? What is the overall reaction?

Nature and Earth – Gaia – will “balance” out. Our own energetic reactions is part of it all as well… if we (individually and/or collectively) react in extreme ways, there will be counter reactions from elsewhere too. It’s as if what we “create” gets “fed” and grows… panic, worry, fear, hostility… just as will safety, peace, comfort, and love. As we go through our own individual journeys and find our ways to become “balanced” (which is that ebb and flow of all the emotions in a closer, smoother and “truer” to our heart center) we can find a sense of peace here.

We will naturally know this state of being… it’s from where we came… embracing the journey through it all is when we can find peace and acceptance in allowing ourselves and others to truly be in harmony, despite our different paths.

As “kumbaya” as this all sounds, the realities of the facts are, not everyone will see it this way, and their journey may appear to be in conflict with our own. Take note and make your own boundaries as respectfully as can be done, and determine your own choices and own them.
At the end of it all, YOU are responsible for YOU and where your journey has been and where it is headed, all based on your moment by moment choices each day.

So, I hope you deeply embrace your journey from your heart, are open to the acceptance of your past by releasing all judgement, and gain exitment in allowing for your future to unfold without fear or restriction.
Much love and blessings
Shiela

June monthly message – Decisions are Choices and they Make a Difference

Decisions are choices it makes a difference

by Shiela Reed

It’s pretty amazing to consider the true depth of how influential are decisions and choices actually are in every part of our lives
From simple things like what to wear (OK maybe not always so simple haha) to things that may make life more “complicated” – like who (if anyone) to spend our time and life with.

In reality – there are so many of these things that go on each day we often just function on “auto pilot” most of the time without much true “awareness”. Now I’m not saying we need to over analyze things or over think every single move we make – but what if we did bring in a level of awareness that came from the heart? You know, our true inner self space and took some time to consider another way or another angle or if we really want that thought, behavior, etc in our space to begin with.

The reality is our decisions and choices matter. Not just to us but others around us. Are we aware enough to consider the current future of effect on ourselves and others while being true to our inner self?
When it comes from the heart and not an ego driven self centered place, it really does end up as a “greater good” or “right”. For example, who we decide to associate with and allow in our lives has an influence on us. Where we choose to go and how we spend our time and money has an effect on our presence. Even something like sharing your DNA may have connections you have not thought of… remember your intentions are within your control while those of others are not.

So do we end up living in fear of making decisions and choices because there are so many directions each one could actually go? Sometimes we do… so I hope we simply become more aware of WHERE our own intentions are coming from while considering that there are also outside influences we may need to become more aware of. Maybe this could help create more of a balance between not being too cautious or “fearful” with also not being “too open” that we are “naive” or “vulnerable” in an unaware kind of way.

I’m so reminded that there is so much that does make a difference – even if it seems small- It will and does ripple out, even a little – which has an impact of energetic frequency on all of us. So yes, what we say and do to ourselves and others has a lasting impact, at least in this lifetime and possibly even beyond (insert golden rule here) 🙂
It also has influence with our Earth and the energetic flows all around us. So we may end up on the “energy river of the collective” or we may “float on a side stream” of our own. Even though it’s usually a little of both, they will eventually mingle and meet in some way and the effect on us greatly depends on where we are energetically, physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually – are we balanced? Are we coming at things from a genuine loving place holding a space of respect for ourselves and others as we observe and contemplate how we really want it to be?

I have to say this month’s message came at me from several different angles and it was as if there was a need to share multiple perspectives, so it was tough to get written down – but as pin has made it to paper, it has remained a simple focus on the importance of just learning a deeper level of awareness that allows decisions and choices to be true, honest, genuine, from a place of love, and held in grace, because it does make a difference.

I hope your decisions lead you to choices that make your true heart happy and resonates with the world in a joyous way.

Peace
Shiela

Depression and Suicide

by Shiela Reed

Sadly there is much talk the last few weeks about depression and suicide.  Take heed and make sure you are taking good care of yourself and being aware of what is around you.  Your choice in people and environment can also effect you.  Remember to be kind and reach out to someone that could use a hello.

It’s probably not as likely as you might think that you would for sure know when someone is contemplating suicide.

It’s a darkened state that never really seems to lift, or at least not for long. A person probably gets good at “fitting in” and “putting on a happy face”.   It starts to feel like that’s the only way it will ever be.

Maybe one day the darkness doesn’t feel like it will ever lift again, or maybe it becomes too hard to put on the show any longer.

It’s probably impossible to ever really know “why” or “what was the final straw”, if there is even such a thing.

I can only tell you from my own experience, that after struggles with depression and having continued to seek out ways to “feel better”, I can now put things together that work for me.

Today, most times are a moment by moment assessment of what my mood is and after having learned about energetic awarenss, I can now actually find relief in knowing it has helped me change enough to not get “caught up in an emotional roller coaster ride” like I used to.

Instead, now I feel like I can honestly CHOOSE and I can “let go” without as much guilt or self judgement.

Don’t get me wrong, it sure the hell doesn’t mean I don’t have feelings, down days, sour moods, or anything else that can come out of the blue. But what doesn’t happen as often is that I don’t feel “trapped there” forever.
It’s hard… it’s not easy when all you want is to talk to someone, a hug, a friend, to feel important, someone to pay attention to you, but you end up sad and looking at “everyone else” and comparing what you “think” others have… when in reality, we all struggle. It’s just that most hide it well or have learned to not linger there as long anymore.  In reality, we ALL need connections.

Sadly we often don’t know how to ask or share experiences genuinely with others because we’ve been wounded. While in the end, the truth is that we have the hardest time truly loving and accepting ourselves first… so we silently struggle.

So to family and friends and survivors, there may have never been anything you could actually have “prevented”, instead the biggest challenge may really be within ALL of us… as every single one of us can learn to be kinder to ourselves, show grace and mercy to ourselves and others, with a genuine human compassion for the life struggles that are unseen in us all.

Again, reach out, be kind, make a positive difference.

May there be peace in your mind, love in your heart, and blessings that come from your tongue.

Shiela

Here is a good resource for anyone that needs help for themselves or a friend or loved one.

March Monthly Message – Self-Acceptance

by Shiela Reed

As I’ve meditated on the message of self-acceptance a few things kept coming in.

One – it’s definition may not be exactly what one may think.

Two – it takes a deeper level of connection to understand and be aware enough to continue this inner journey.

The “definition” as given to me through inner promptings is more about a deep self-love that holds zero forms of judgement.  It is not good, it is not bad, it is not of ego.  It is a most pure essence of acceptance and comes from our deepest heart space and connection with our divine spark of life.

An example of how easily it can become confusing or miss guided kept coming up.  Although there is importance in taking care of oneself and at times, in being “proud” of things we do and “of ourselves”, it is not about being at the expense of others or one sided thinking.  Being prideful in that sort of way is actually a product of the ego.  One way I “check myself” regarding this is by first – being able to be aware that something may not be setting just right – I may have a twinge of “hmm that feels at odds” (even when I don’t want to see it!).    That’s when I ask questions of myself such as “where is that coming from?”, is that connected to an unmet emotional need maybe?

Anymore, I have also been able to start telling rather quickly if I get a “defensiveness” that rises up, such as “I am so proud of this or that part of me that I must tell everyone about it (I check if I’m being boastful and maybe really feeling loss or “less than” in some way as the real motivator for my announcements) and there is also a clue that if I feel as if they “do not see how good I am” I feel hurt or angry (I check for other missing needs, such as attention, love, etc that I may actually be seeking from outside myself).

As an alternative, if there is a level of true heart self-acceptance, there will not be a “need” associated with it.  It will “just be”.  It is not about the recognition or notation.  Instead it is the feeling of deep self-love, knowing you are living a true connection in that moment.  The topic or event or activity and any outcomes or lack thereof,  “just is”.

As far as the second part – I noticed as I have been contemplating this, it became clear that there is a whole lot more to it under the surface and it is NOT that easy!  I have returned to my meditation on it a few times the last few weeks to try and figure out how to even begin to say anything about it and NOT inadvertently include my own ego/bias/definitions.  🙂  I was again reminded how it is simply not a matter of shear “will” or overpowering that can be done by the mind, emotion, or a “stronger desire”.

I simply cannot WILL MYSELF to love me better or myself more.  No amount of affirmations or books or surface work will get you all the way there.  It takes the deeper, inner workings to finally shift that part of our inner consciousness and that quite frankly is very different for each of us!  There is no “one size fits all”, there is no “one book you will read” that will snap everyone into this space, there is no “one practice/program” that is guaranteed to work for every single person.

That’s probably clear as we think of the many motivational speakers, self-help books, courses, therapies, etc. that seem to work for some but not for someone else…

We will each come to this place on our own and at our own divine timing.  Maybe some never will… that is part of a greater mystery for another day…  🙂

In actuality, it is one of the most significant steps in our personal life journey that we can and will ever take.  Because technically without it, we seem to always feel as if we are still just a little short from “really getting it”.  Maybe this is why we keep searching and looking?  Like we know there is a key link that is a core connector for all the parts of our journey….

Having this inner connection, no matter how small it starts, is where the transformation begins.  It’s like a small light in a dark tunnel that as we notice it and move toward it, it becomes brighter and truer.  You gain the reference feelings of “just knowing your truth” and you find peace and comfort there, even if no one else does.  Yes it may be difficult, but it’s at this point that we realize there is no need to force our own thoughts and feelings, or brag or boast, because we have our own deep inner true heart level of self-acceptance that cannot be taken away from us.

The most difficult thing for me to remember at this point, is to love myself through the times of doubt and setbacks, and remember I will always be learning.  Because this is not a level of life easily lived every minute of every day – yet is it worthy of the effort to try.

May you start with new awareness as you take one step at a time toward a deeper level of true heart self-acceptance.

Blessings

Shiela

What are you giving life?

by Shiela Reed

What are you giving life?

Have you ever really deeply contemplated this? I frequently do. I also realize on almost a daily basis I am having some form of a conversation with many different people on many different life topics.    Basically I then realize almost every time my “advice” or guidance seems to frequently end up with this as the “theme” to be considered.

In a way it seems like it could appear complicated or time-consuming, but in reality it’s just like anything, it takes some practice and doing it over and over before it becomes like “second nature”. Even then we all still have times when we will naturally just go back to using old mechanisms for dealing with things because we kind of “forget”.

This is why it is almost of an utmost importance to become “aware” of how this can affect us.   If we cannot find our way to a place of truly being open to other possibilities and concepts, we will likely stay within the confines of our current limited awareness. (As I’m writing this I realize this is a whole other topic 🙂 to just share later on regarding how to open up to awareness.. so stay tuned)

Today I want to share some thoughts and ponderance regarding how we feed and grow every single thing in our lives and how as our awareness grows, those things change and shift.  It is not really as random as our mind would like us to believe. This is the entering of our “will” to decide our own current reality – make” predictions” for future – while learning from our past without are an ego attached judgement

Here’s an example I have been using the last few years:  recently there was a full moon.  It was a super blue blood moon packed with powerful Energies( lots and lots of stuff written on that and where this energy can and does tend to go). The reality is simply stated – “packed with powerful energy”.  This is true, I have yet to meet or talk to anyone that disagrees with that.  Where there are variances is in regards to the “interpretations” of how this manifests in people’s daily lives.  So bear with me as I try to break this down-  because it ends up that everyone is correct, but there’s more to the story – and that’s the part I hope to help people see.  Another version if you will….

An interpretation – prediction- even all the way to a stereotype – is based on some element of an apparent consistency.  In this case one statement may be that “full moons bring out all the crazy people and behavior”.   If that’s the version of the story I latch onto, then it will manifest right before my eyes and I will for sure see it everywhere – thus “supporting” my interpretation of a full moon.  And YES, there are plenty of those exact things to find, see, and use as “proof”  to support that “stereotypical” Full Moon fever.

However, what if one’s awareness shifted a bit and we became aware of some other, almost as common but maybe appearing to be subtle occurrences during a full moon?

– like boosts of energy that if focused could be utilized to make big progress on a task

–  like emotions that flood us and are begging for attention because we have likely held them at bay so long, they now force their way through on the tides of the full moon energy flow.

– or like the natural draw to awe and wonder of the sky and the ebb and flow of life

How different could this or any other version of a concept, situation, or person be shifted in our current and future lives, while also allowing us to now see some new learning elements from our past?

So I invite you to contemplate this question with an open heart, allowing your mind to be free to wander with the understanding that what we hone in on and focus on, we “give life to and grow”.

So, “What if it was different than the way I currently see it?”  Would we then continue with our current thoughts about it? Or would we choose to shift that and allow things to change and become something new for us? As this sets in – is when we really begin to realize – in the end – WE always have a choice in the matter.  🙂

I hope you each grow and give life to the things, people/relationships, feelings, concepts, situations, etcetera…. that your heart actually chooses.

Blessings and Peace today and always

Shiela