July Message of the Month: Sharing about Choices

Sharing about Choices…

by Shiela Reed

Once again there is a message about the importance of our choices…
While there was a lot going on in July energetically, it will continue into Aug… It’s important to remember that it can be “better” and it can be “worse” based on our individual choices. This concept and processing of choices comes up again and again in different forms and from different perspectives. As stated before it matters about where our awareness is and where our alliance is.  Is it within our heart or outside of ourselves?

Today I was prompted to share my personal journal entry of the day which just so happens to tie in to this topic on choices… I hope you enjoy the way it came in for me and you find a connection to it as well.

{ Lots of changes energetically the last week or so. Shifts within relationships have been better. I have been more involved with energy working which helps me so much to remain grounded and my soul to feel that I’m “listening”.
Yet, sometimes I end up feeling like I have to force myself to move in the direction of what I think I “believe” my soul self is saying (ego trick) yet I know that is not the way it works. It’s what I call a “doing loop” I often get caught in. Even when I decide to “not do” it feels weird and so much chatter starts in my head, judging.. So it’s been a learning experience for sure.
Today I woke to really feeling this lovely inviting energy opening my eyes further about possibilities and good things in the future. It warms me to being excited and embracing the newness. I seriously feel like all I want to do right now is actually PARTICIPATE in life and go out and have new experiences and see my current ones with fresh eyes.
 It’s a really cool feeling!
It reminds me of the excitement of newness and how that increases the energy needed to actually get something done. Yet I also know (and remember) that in the past this has taken me into another part of the “doing loop” which leads to overwhelm and anxiety. Often increasing feelings of inadequacy and a lack of worthiness.
And sometimes it crashes into the opposite side of the loop – of doing nothing – leading to depression and despair and a different flavor of inadequacy and lack of worth.
With both of these I now more often see doubts and fears attached and try to remember and realize it is due to not being in this present moment. Instead I’m maybe energetically a bit too far forward or backward rather than connecting to the inner guidance and trusting in what is here and “next”.
Interesting…. I have noticed now that I get to this place, I begin to “mentalize” it and try to plan and control it… by saying things like “well, if I just go skipping around picking daisies all day, then not a damn thing will get done!” – lol which is true (to an extent)
Or if I push and am hard core working non stop on list after list just to make it to another list.. I’m exhausted and angry and have no joy or peace. (Been there done that, so that one is much easier to let go of these days as I’ve learned to let go of much of that MOST times anyway 😊)
So.. here I am still working on balance. Which is where I always seem to connect back to my “choices”. Moment to moment- situation to situation- thought to thought. I’m learning to try more often to stop at the beginning and ask “what is this choice connected to?” – my heart and a future self, a past – and just a memory- or is it meant as a reminder of a lesson?
While yes there is no reason to “over analyze” – it is kind of important to ease our human systems into this zone of “stillness” so we can actually “think/feel”- with our inner self energy body.
For me I feel like this is why I’ve learned the way I have in this lifetime. I know what it has felt like to be “go go go crazy busy – don’t sit still – do it – get it done- do it better” and found that is not conducive to my ability to hear my true soul self! Instead I need stillness in all capacities and more and more these days I am the one that MUST create that for myself.
But I am so glad and thankful I even started recognizing that need… many many years ago in therapeutic processes, AA, and ongoing life experiences. What a blessing to be at this point of the journey and have bright eyes today to see opportunities and a promise for a better tomorrow- rather than sadness and defeat.
No, it is NOT always this way… yes things can always be “worse” just as they can always be “better”; just as the night turns to day – we can all hopefully find ways to connect to the openness that change can bring – choice by choice – no matter how small.
Embrace the joy in all those moments- the small and the great. Allow them to be markers for our journeys path. Find peace and gratitude in our aliveness and an ability to have open eyes that are bright with a child like excitement to learn and grow and explore. }
May I and each of you find that now…
Peace, love and blessings
Shiela

Sharing a milestone of healing

by Shiela Reed
This started as “just another day” for me as I got up and was doing what I do on Saturday mornings. I’m sure it would have crossed my mind or popped up somewhere today, but my “non drinking life” has become my norm and a super special and important person reminded me just how special it is to remember. ?
 
12 years ago today I became a “non drinker”. I’m not going to go into all that reflection but I do need to make sure it’s clear to myself that I am Alive, Blessed, and Grateful.
 
I truly try to live that, just as much as probably anyone else out there “just trying to do a little better each day”, but it’s days like today and special people who remind you, just how blessed one really is.
 
My heart is raised with love ? to ALL those who continue to struggle with all types of addictions. My story is not one of “devastation and destruction” as most people think about regarding this subject.
Many many people who know me have wondered “why” and that it “never seemed that bad”. But in reality, there was plenty of “collateral damage” and my inner self had taken a hit for so long I never realized how separated I had become from the true ME.
 
So as I shed tears of joy and happiness today and thankfulness for the life I’ve graciously been given. I clearly know that it could not be what it is today without those first steps to walk toward change. ?
 
Yes it was hard. Yes it was scary. No I didn’t “want” to do it. But the special spark and divine connection to my creator which has always lived within, kept whispering and telling me I had to or my life here was never going to get better.
 
Everyone’s “first steps” are different, mine happened to be counseling, lots of self reflection, a desire for change, and then thankfully AA, which taught me exactly the base I needed. I never want to forget or take that for granted.
 
I am especially thankful for the many “reminders” I am given on a daily basis which keeps me humbled , grateful, and deeply blessed.
 
Have a great day and find something good to be openly thankful for today. ? ??
Blessings
Shiela