May Message of the Month – Love of Self

by Shiela Reed

“I may not be loved by all but I am loved by some. Source of my creation loves me and I am free to love myself.” I Am…

I find myself thinking often about the importance of loving ourselves and what that means and how true it is that it’s important to learn to “love ourselves first, so we can really connect to the love of another”.

I know there are “loves” outside of ourselves that may be deep and feel very intense. Maybe we would even “lay down our own lives” for that other… those are truly intense and may very well be connected as I’m trying to describe. But what I guess I’m thinking of and trying to describe is how far would we go for OURSELVES? Our true “hearts desire” and that guidance from within, where our true self is connected to our creator. Do we know what that really feels like? It’s the epitome of feeling connected to all creation. From God/source of creation to all aspects of the seen and unseen world straight to ourselves and how we “fit in” and are so very much a part of the whole.

See when we scale back and look from a “distance” as an observer, we start to see the many pieces fitting together to make the whole. And what a beautiful feeling of LOVE this creates as we sense the connectedness, even in our “less than lovable” times. Because we are also then able to see others in this same light. As vulnerable beings trying to “protect” our egos from what is deemed to be unsafe and/or pains of the world. At this moment of “compassion” we find we truly feel ALIVE and just maybe, truly “worthy” of love… from ourselves as well as others.

As I write this I can literally feel the expansion of my heart chakra and believe with all intention that this message of the month will create a similar expression for each who reads it.

Find the peace and serenity of this space in glorious self love that is not self-ish, but self-fulfilling and bound in the connectedness to others yet free to allow self expression from each of our souls.

And so it is…
“I may not be loved by all but I am loved by some. Source of my creation loves me and I am free to love myself. I Am…”

Blessings

Shiela

GETTING PAST THE JIBBER JABBER by Bryan Moss

What do I mean by getting past the jibber jabber? You know, the brain noise. The, what seems like to be, 5 zillion voices demanding dominance inside our 3D skulls. The voice of reason..whatever THAT is. The ‘critical inner voice’ (which was the topic of the previous blog about the critical inner voice), the self pronounced decision maker. The self-acclaimed ruler with enough voices to drive a ventriloquist mad. I know I’ve been, and still am from time to time, the puppet to my Ego’s** ventriloquist act.

**Definition of Ego in this blog:——-> Ego = ALL voices inside of your thinking Head/Mind, brain noise, jibber jabber, the countless decisions, the countless answers, the even more countless unanswered questions, the second guessing, the judge, the executioner…get the picture?

What to do when presented with multiple options to mull over, or the opposite happens, a decision has to be made that instant? I’ve found that both may be resolved with the same simple solution. Now it doesn’t get rid of the brain noise. Actually part of this solution is ALLOWING the Ego’s jibber jabber talk away. It’s going to anyway. Please take my word for it. Use my blood, sweat and tears of years of trying to eradicate the Ego. Myself, and others, have come to a realization the mind doesn’t need to have a solution to anything. I could write a long 1000 word article on this but I can’t stand long winded ‘anythings’ when explanations can be short and sweet.

How to get past the jibber jabber?

The secret is under your nose. It’s your Heart. Your Heart’s brain. Others describe it as a ‘hunch’, ‘gut feeling’, ‘instinct’, ‘a knowing’…you know what I mean. It’s that first, initial nano-second of a thought the appears right before the brain noise invades. I try to use my Heart’s FEELINGS to make my choices. That gut feeling…does it feel like the right thing to do? Or, in spite of a mountain of evidence supporting it, does it FEEL funny? Funny as in….I should walk away from it? Or do nothing and be still and sit with it?

Yes. It’s scientifically proven the Heart has a brain of it’s own, separate from the cranial’s brain. There are cells in the Heart that can communicate to everything within the body on it’s own. Unlike the thinking brain upstairs, the Heart’s brain can discern decisions more accurately through feeling from our innate, born given, divinity of Love. Don’t get me wrong. This takes practice. Practice to stop the knee jerk reactions programmed into us. Practice to allow yourself to fail and learn through trial and error by listening to your Heart. Practice to place your trust in your Heart, not in the ‘rational’ thinking in your head. Though simple and effective, it means to practice, practice, and more practice in going with your Heart. The brain noise is going to try to out fox you, put doubt in you, give you every reason to listen to it. The trick is NOT to ignore it. Let it rant and rave. I know when I finally accepted the fact that the Ego is hard wired in me and just as much a part of me as my left arm, I accepted it and let it blah, blah, blah on and on. I envision ‘little Bryan’/Ego sitting in a corner, like a classroom in my mind just whining away. Over time, as I practice going with my Heart, the Ego’s noise is more in the background and not as annoying.

The truest answers are the simplest. What’s sad is that it’s the simple answers no one is willing to believe and try. We’re all programmed  to make everything difficult with lots of steps and rituals. We feel like we’re not worthy unless we go through a ‘test’ to prove our worthiness for any answers.

Keep it simple.

Go past the jibber jabber. End the insanity and dare to go a different path. Decide from your Heart. There’s a saying I go to all the time, “Simplicity is the highest form of art”. The Heart is my art on that canvas. I try to keep the lines simple. I suggest you do the same. It can help you get past the jibber jabber.

Technology and Judgement

by Shiela Reed

While the advancement of our technological world has great benefits, it is also extremely important to remember the need to connect within and truly know your inner self.
We can utilize technology in very positive ways but it can also hijack our energy systems if we are not careful.
Here are some examples that just pop into my head- people have cameras and ways to watch EVERYONE these days, so while it is great for “catching” and seeing people in terrible acts, it can also feed the judgement machine and create an atmosphere void of the ability to show compassion or even forgive. It can push down the energy of someone else. And while we may “feel justified” based on our own moral compass, we might consider using caution about how far we go.
Today let’s say your minding your own business walking in your neighborhood and people have cameras up. You don’t really know or notice it think about it, but as you walk you have a wedgie (you know, underwear stuck uncomfortably in the wrong spot) and you go to digging to get it loose. And go on about your walk. A week or so goes by and some tags you on social media as a video is circulating making fun of what you did because you were “caught” on someone’s camera!
So what is “fair” here? The technology wins and you are just a “spectacle” for everyone’s amusement? Some will claim you are too sensitive.. (this may even add to why people become so “paranoid”).. these are things that can just go too far and instead of the human race showing compassion (hey I bet we have all picked the underwear out of our butt at some point) – is THIS what we are about now? Jumping to conclusions, making our own stories up about others? Putting people down or making fun when we have our own imperfections?… of course things can be funny and amusing. But remember, it’s better to be laughed WITH than AT…
One could stick with the argument that people have gotten “too sensitive” and while there is absolutely truth to the fact that many of us get really good and comfortable playing “the victim” and don’t look within either- instead we project and judge in those situations too and “blame others” for “picking on us”..

I guess what I keep noticing and what keeps getting brought back to my attention and what I was led to share is that without a healthy true inner compass connected to your true you and the divine creator of life, we’re just a bunch of ego heads running around banging into each other. Feeling “justified”, self righteous, judgey, and disconnected …
Remember too, we cannot truly whole heartedly connect with others if we are not first connected to our real self in divine light and love. I get that it sounds woowoo, but I bet you know that feeling point I’m referencing.
So in this world of growing technology, stop and think.. I know it doesn’t lend itself to that because everything is moving so fast and then our systems try to keep up, so we think we should also be moving faster. But this is why we end up exhausted and depleted and “crash” energetically = Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and/or etherically.
It’s not to “bash” technology – our own awareness and choices about it is what makes it turn out as a “good” thing for us or not. I’ll leave you with what I find to be a cool example, at least in my mind. 😊
When I am centered and aligned within, and need an “answer” or some guidance on a topic, I take a moment to focus in on being open to what I “need” – what is “best” according to my true self – and I do not focus in on judging whatever comes forward. I then may look something up on the internet and “happen” to find exactly what I am “needing” at the moment. (And I can just “feel” that it is “true” to me)
It may be looking for a new doctor, it may be looking for a certain crystal, or oil.. I just try to remain “open” and this is when technology has helped me a great deal.
It really is a big topic and I’m sure one that has layers upon layers of “debate” and discussion. But at the core, at least how it comes forward to me, is that it boils down to our own connection first and then our CHOICE.
Where is your heart aligned?

Deep thoughts and heartfelt guidance sent your way..
Shiela

April message of the Month: God/the divine is in Everything

by Shiela Reed

God/the divine is in everything. Think about that… in EVERYTHING- each thing and person we interact with, in each of us… it sure hit home as I was trying to make a connection to that inner place within me one evening. It helped me a bit to think about how I interact with others. How I treat them and think about them. Do I or would I treat or think of God/divine this way? The more important question is, Do I WANT to treat/think/ feel this way about others or myself?
What about the THINGS in my life? Do I treat those with respect or other peoples things with respect? When I no longer need something do I pass that on with love and gratitude or just toss it aside as worthless? Even when it is time to let go of something, can I do that lovingly and with appreciation or do I hold an ego attachment to it in some way?
Deep thoughts in a night of the middle of a rough energetic week with big ups and downs at the first part of this month. Trying to free my mind as this connection to God/creator and my awareness of my own attitude came front and center.
Sometimes it does feel like I’m trying to “out do” God by trying to be “better” than creation, yet sometimes I just feel so connected to source I don’t think it’s that as much as that it seems I’m just trying to follow inner promptings and get confused when my inner compass is “rusty” or out of practice or balance Additional confusion comes in with the constant bombardment by all the energies around me and I can’t find enough stillness and I find myself subjected to things, situations, people, places, sounds etc that deep down in my true self (that inner soul space connected to source) I know are “unhealthy” and unsupportive to my “real purpose”.

It’s definitely been a month of shifts and adjustments. As the thoughts of God/divine and our individual relationship with source is contemplated, may we each have an experience of openness that expands our hearts allowing divine love to flow through us to ourselves, others, and our every piece of surrounding.

This month has been busy with messages and topics coming forward. As a reflection of that love from me and for me, I want to attempt to share them more frequently. 😊

Blessings, peace, and love
Shiela

Accomplished: a personal share for 2019

Sharing some accomplishments- a summary from 2018 that carries into 2019 – by Shiela Reed
You know, there are just times when it’s really important to state out loud how proud we are of ourselves. And I’m going to make that moment now and share it with anyone that is interested.
It is not a boastful pride. Instead it is deeply reflective and very much a summary of many things that have added up to this moment. Including a LOT of personal sessions as recent as this week (written March 30th 2019) that have truly helped me through another “rough spot”.
But today as I received another certificate of accomplishment and smiled from ear to ear thinking about what it took to get this this year, I felt my heart beam with the kind of pride only born of a true heartfelt deep self love and a respect for the deeper processes that have been at work within my life the last many years of this lifes journey.
Today I am also humbled and filled with gratitude for the connection I have been able to continue to foster and grow along with and between my inner self and divine creator. It truly amazes me… ❤
I received an official certificate of completion of the 100 hr QiFit Instructor program from the medical Qi Gong program at Zen Wellness. 🧘‍♀️
As some may know, this year I have decided it’s time for me to pull together what I’ve been working on and start my own Energy guidance business. This is so I can share with others the things I have been learning and offer assistance to others in my own unique way.
As I’m working on that, this was a beautiful reminder to reflect on WHAT I have recently accomplished and WHY I started doing it all in the first place.
I recall being both nervous and excited in May 2018 when I completed certification as a Level I and II Energy Coach through transCODES with a Mastery certificate in GRACE Integrity. It took around 2 years AFTER several years of other individual year long programs. 🙏🧘‍♀️❤
Then in December 2018 I finally tested and officially earned my License in Social Work! 🤓 And Iiterally cried!
In all I am realizing that 2018 was a hell of a summary of MANY things I had been working on and can now see why I’m being led to focus this year on putting it all together in a form that expresses this all from my heart. 💖
So as I both excitedly AND humbly started to reflect on all that I have been doing, I cannot help but feel very proud of the fact that I have COMPLETED things I started and felt were so important for me personally as well as discovered how my heart has felt it will be important to share with others within and through my new endeavor. ❤
I truly hope you keep an eye out for the services I will be offering in case they are things you or someone you know might find interesting. 🌹
I am so grateful for the multiple layers of support in my life and appreciate you for reading to the end. Thank you for taking the time and sharing in my joy. 😊🙏
Peace, Love, and Blessings
Shiela

OUR CRITICAL INNER VOICE by Bryan Moss

For most of us our mind is non stop and busy, busy, busy. Some call it brain noise. Some religious groups refer to it as the devil. Counselors diagnose it as the unconscious. Shrinks peg it as the ego. However the term that I prefer to use is Critical Inner Voice (C.I.V.) or Ego.
You know what I mean. That “voice” in your head that’s non stop all day and possibly throughout the night. I know it second guesses everything I try to decide on. Then when I do decide on something? The C.I.V. presents another choice or another scenario. Then that makes me have doubts about the original choice I made because, after all..”If it was the right choice to begin with then why would other options present themselves afterwards?”
Or it loves to judge and argue and show others how “special” I am because I have a different perception on something. It motivates me, in a very sneaky and stealthy way, to “prove” myself. It has me thinking I need to “defend” my ways and views. It can lead me into a false sense of security by accumulating “stuff”. The latest electronic gizmos, gadgets, toys, accessories, properties, books, knowledge…. blah, blah, blah, and more blah. The absolute worse it can and WILL do….make me believe that I am THAT….. my Critical Inner Voice is my actual identity.
Now you can’t blame me. I, along with the collective (everyone else on the planet), was raised to believe this. However, many are starting to realize this is not the case. We’re not this meat sack of flesh (with no disrespect to our 3-D bodies–they need love too) containing a “soul”, “energy body”, “being”, _______(insert believe system). Our C.I.V. will always put our flesh/brain in first place mode, first and foremost. It wants to make it the center of our universe.
There lies the rub. Back in cave man days we used the C.I.V./Ego for basic survival mode. “MMMM..me hungry.” Then the primitives would go pick berries. “MMMMM…me thirsty.” They would drink from a stream. “MMMMM…EEEKKK!” They start running from the T-Rex about to eat them. Over the years dinosaurs no longer existed. Our Egos needed other things to occupy it’s mind. Thus, judgement, criticism, second guessing and self importance became only a few of the many tools/toys created to distract the collective from that one truth… we are NOT our mind/body with a soul inside of it. It’s the other way around. We ARE light bodies/souls with a body.
Light Bodies = Energetic Bodies using the 3-D body as a vehicle.
Where does the C.I.V./Ego fit within this paradigm? The 1960’s and 70’s movements pushed the ideas that by eliminating the voices in our heads all of our problems could be solved and enlightenment attained. They insisted we had to be sitting in the lotus position to show how we were really dedicated to the spiritual path and eventually rewarded by having no Ego/C.I.V. at all! No wonder everyone is dazed and confused. That is just not possible. Wake up and give up that whole enlightenment B.S.!!!
I learned through teachings and good ole’ trial and error it’s not about erasing my C.I.V./Ego. The Ego is part of the hard wire in our brain. As referred to before, it’s our survival mechanism with one purpose only….protection at no expense. So I’m learning it’s about ACCEPTING the fact I do have an Ego/C.I.V. that’s a part of me as much as my right arm is a part of my body. And out of that acceptance I have found that instead of buying into and being distracted by the “brain noise’ of life, it’s about observing that “brain noise” and possibly learning how it’s not my True Self. My True Self FEELS from my Heart. It’s my feelings that discern my journey’s decisions as I move forward. Not the ramblings of my C.I.V./Ego. Referring to the picture above….I’m not all of those balloons, as my C.I.V. would have me believe. They’re distractions from acknowledging the truth.
By paying 100% attention to putting one foot forward at a time, being totally present, and using my Heart’s intuition, all the while accepting the “brain noise” for what it is…..dealing with my C.V.I./Ego is a little easier.

March Message of the Month: Stay Grounded in love and light with Mother Earth

by Shiela Reed

March 6th first que- to this message

This is how we make it through. Several of my other mentors are talking about it and in my inner being I can feel the resonance of this truth.
I’m part of multiple things at play in the world right now. Just as you are. I choose them in different degrees actually. Some are for my own soul growth and expansion while others are interactions that are assisting others through their own journeys. Some of those are definitely more lovely and enjoyable than others. However, there is still purpose in it all.

I find the reminder to be hugely impactful right now as there is a “next layer” I need to personally journey through and that is my body and food. As the energies shift so strongly right now and we move into the crystalline grid system, I feel my body having a hard time adjusting sometimes. I have noted that a dietary change is in order, but my mind/ego has not wanted to let go of that old connection. I’m continuing to work through this journey because I also know it is necessary for my body system to sustain me. Yet that draw to “not change” eating habits and choices is becoming more and more painfully obvious how outdated they are.
Of course I’m trying to give myself room and lots of grace to get there, but my ego mind is already trying to spin it as “if it won’t matter that much” if I don’t change anything. My inner self immediately says “inaccurate”.. so.. it’s time, like it or not.
So I’m needing to go all the way back to how I feel about food. How and why I eat what I do and notice how it’s different if it’s just me or when I’m with someone else…

Does this resonate with anyone else? This late in the month and I’m still struggling and even had health kind of issues so it amazes me at how blocked we can remain and no amount of “willing it” is the answer. Sometimes it truly is the work of going layer by layer until there is a release, and then of course we find… yes, you guessed it! More layers through to even deeper connections. 😊

Yet every time at every layer, the grounding in natural Earth energies is found to be comforting and uplifting. As the gentle (yes and sometimes harsh) reminder that the universe and natural order of things unseen prevail while the more connected and aware we become to this, we find a deeper connection to our inner selves and relationship with the divine.

I hope you have all found ways to ground in love and light with mother earth this month..if not, there is still plenty of time.
Happy slightly belated spring equinox. 🌻☀️

blessings

Shiela

February Message of the Month: Solutions and Conflicts

Solutions and Conflicts by Shiela Reed

There is usually a solution to any perceived conflict if we are willing to be open to listening to alternatives.

How do you resolve conflicts? Are you aware of where your mind goes if you feel defensive? To me one of the key things to be aware of is being able to realize and connect to the deeper aspects (usually ego related) that spark an inner defensiveness.

Over the years of learning ways to connect within myself at deeper levels I have been able to find new layers of awareness that have helped me make progress in dealing with conflict. So far this is where I find myself…

First, a level of acknowledgement that I consider something a conflict in the first place and I either want to address it/engage in efforts to resolve it or not.
If I don’t want to work toward a resolution, then I will need to “own the fact” that I will be CHOOSING to participate in and FEED the energy of the conflict in a less productive kind of way.
Even with this, I now realize there are deeper aspects to this too.. i.e. am I wanting to control or ignore something (my own emotions maybe) simply by being what appears to be non-active?
Maybe it is out of fear of having to change a long standing mindset of my own?

The same could be said for if I choose to “work toward a resolution”… what are the reasons behind it? “Selfish” motives, or because I “know best”, or because I truly want an opportunity to collaborate with another soul in an effort for us to learn together and from each other?

Regardless, acknowledgment and awareness of the conflict at least allows us an opportunity to observe another layer in this dynamic which is the next thing to consider and that is the multiple places for asking questions of our inner self…

However, it can get extra sticky if we start thinking too much about others involved in the conflict and we project into the situation, so being aware of this is key too.

Now what happens if another person/party doesn’t want to engage in conflict resolution? Do I drop into fear? Anger? Feeding the conflict.. or make an attempt to find a place of common ground, consider that the “other side” may be functioning out of their own fear. I can hear some now (even my own head goes here) “but wait, if they don’t want to compromise or work it out, then why would I trust them and try to consider them being fearful, thus putting me in a vulnerable position?”

Well, personally, I think this is a very pivotal point to be able to come to in terms of truly making a personal “decision” about a conflict. Are you able to process to this point quick enough all the while listening to your true heart prompting and acknowledging your ego interjections all along the way… to ask, what part of this is “true/safe/right” to ME at that core level? Or do you miss the underlying parts of the ego that are being supported and fall into a looping pattern?

For me, there have been times I have worked through so far and found that there simply is nothing further I personally can do without crossing my own lines of integrity or what my heart already knows is beyond my souls responsibility, or boundaries. For example, NOT continuing to help or own parts of a conflict that really no longer belong to you.
At other times I may realize I am not taking responsibility for my own “part” enough and need to reevaluate why I may be dodging that… (back to some of the above questions)

We can go off in so many directions and learn so many things from a conflict (inner, outer, and all in between) but we tend to either shy away from them or go about resolution in frequently ineffective ways. Likely because conversations are often loaded with ego needs and personal projections. It really seems to boil down to continuing to ask questions of ourselves layer by layer to understand our own deep rooted connection to the conflict topic in the first place and maybe have some very basic respect for where the other side MAY be coming from (without acting like we know them better than they know themselves) and then just trusting that it will turn out how its supposed to in the end.

Overall, the topic of “conflict” is pretty interesting as it can be such a beautiful reflection of reality, whether we choose to see it in all its “glory” or not is the question. A reality of infinite learning opportunities and/or deep rooted divisions and ego needs…

I continue to find that no two conflicts are the same and the ego aspects sparked within me change, but as I learn to acknowledge and ask inner questions, the energy of the conflict itself shifts.

It would be interesting to hear how you view conflicts for yourself and if this concept makes sense to you or not. Whether there have been inner or outer conflicts, there does seem to be some elements that remain the same, acknowledge and question from the inner heart at all times to find the “best” resolution.

Much love and peace as you peel back the layers in the world of “conflicts”.

Shiela

A personal “share” for “energy friends”…

A personal journal share by Shiela Reed

This post is a bit different from the others as it has a bit more “energy worker” lingo in it so for those that “get that”… maybe you can relate.  For those that are just starting to “relate”… I hope this resonates at a deeper level and opens more paths of personal awareness for you…

I’ve been in this interesting space the last couple weeks. During my vacation last week I found myself in what felt like “the void”. It was a most beautiful time of replenishment. My mind had planned to spend time being “creative” but my system really needed stillness and “presentness”, so that’s what I did. It helped a lot to re-strengthen my awareness as it was starting to be a little cloudy with mind chatter overlay. I’m really noticing my physical body feelings now when these things shift and occur which is really cool! I am noticing so much of the “inner conversations” that used to occur without my awareness and now I am able to interject, redirect, or even stop if it is not matching my heart at the moment or something I don’t purposely choose (I still choose ego stuff sometimes but am more conscious of it most days) 😊

It’s just been difficult to “rejoin” my physical world this time though. It’s hard to explain. It felt different. Like I chose to be “back”… yet there was no feeling of “down/despair/disappointment” nor any “high/giddiness/excitement”… just a feeling of being fully present in my body and my moment. Noticing, acknowledging and accepting it all. It felt so different physically I kind of didn’t want to move. At one point (maybe last night) I noticed my 5th and 6th chakras were too wide open and “information” was dumping in so fast it kind of gave me a slight headache. It also made my mental mind overload so I had to ask those areas to close up some!

Anyway, it’s been different and I wanted to share. My mind and ego parts are sure trying to judge and play that game with me about “not doing or being enough”… but I’m keeping it called into the light of my heart for the most part which has helped me “process” from that space. The main issue seems connected to knowing I have “knowledge” of things I can do, but I have both a feeling of “I want to, but I don’t want to”… so I’m still working through some new layers of where that is coming from. How I want it to look but not be so controlling about it all.. it’s so interesting to “wrestle” with how to have front end (projected) motivation and desire without the ego leading it. That now seems obvious as to why that is “together”, but my point is a bit of why I suspect changes have not really transitioned, my “passion” part isn’t fully active anywhere yet… or does it really have to be? Maybe that’s another form of an ego trap! Jeesh I have talked myself into a circle now. Lol.

Well, regardless, I have definitely found some new information behind it, so I’ll see where that leads me next. To be continued…

love and light,

Shiela

January Message of the Month – Action and Growth

by Shiela Reed

Earlier this month I got a couple back to back “pings” for a message of the month topic and today I hear a combination of the two…

Jan 16th = Action
What does action look like for you?
Do you immediately think of physical movement? What about the underlying stuff

Jan 17 = growing stronger
“Find a way to grow stronger…
you’re the only one who can do it…”

As we explore what it means for each of us to be “active” and learn how to follow the inner truth and promptings, we ARE actually “growing stronger”.

It’s funny because in my younger years I was physically strong and found my inner work to be my own, but without focus or guidance. Yes there were plenty of struggles and I guess that’s “normal” for much of that phase of life… I took my physical life for granted as many of us probably do/did… then as I went through another phase of life, I became aware that my inner connection had been “neglected” so I dove head first into “addressing” that…finding the missing “direction” and guidance. While that was VERY much needed I’ve had an awareness the last few years, that I ended up becoming VERY disconnected from my physical body and now have physical things that have manifested and I now must “address”…

It wouldn’t have had to be this way, but while I accept that my journey is what it needs to be for me, I want to share now how I find it as an ironic example of the “extremes” I’ve always lived. An “all or nothing” lifestyle, (or changes from one extreme to another), struggling desperately to find balance between two polar opposites that seemed to never want to “get along”… while YES, ultimately the “lesson” of “how” to balance comes from within each of us and from a spiritual kind of place, I am finding a new “struggle” in dealing with physical things that have never been a part of my life limitations. While parts of this could easily be “blamed” on aging, deep down I do not buy this for myself. I know within my heart why this is presenting itself and it is an awareness that I will continue to explore and work on.

There are elements of patience, self love, and acceptance that immediately come forward. A deeper aspect that I tend to keep very private, is that I have finally admitted to myself that the “inner world” and workings of my life are NOT where I find discomfort, nor has it ever been.. yes “hard” at times, but something I don’t want to ever look at?.. not really… sure I will avoid just as anyone else, but eventually I keep looking and have always enjoyed that process… even when it initially feels “painful”… in reality, what I have found is that I have much more difficulty with this physical life… so it could seem easier to just “not be a part of it” sometimes and that was MUCH easier for me to “overlook” when I did not have to pay much attention to my physical self. I learned ways to “check out” from myself pretty well.

Action for me has meant MANY things, depending on the “phase” of life, the lessons I’ve been willing to learn, and how open I’ve been to continue to take new steps following my hearts path. THIS is what is helping support my growth each day. Which will always be an opportunity of choices for me. There is no need to get caught up in or restricted by singlur definitions of “action” and “growth” because in the end it’s our own anyway right?!

So, here it is, kind of “full circle” in kind of a way. I found a year or so ago that I need to connect my two. Instead of always one or the other. I’ve had my focus on physical, I’ve had my focus on spiritual/inner work, now for the yin and yang to circle… Yes, a need for balance will always exist. We come to that realization in different way and at different times and in multiple intensities.

Connecting the emotional, spiritual, and physical is due for an “upgrade” in my book. 😊

I hope you find “food for thought” here that assists you in finding your own action and ultimately a new layer of growth on your personal journey.

Much peace and love
Shiela