A hard day – Kind of

An example of how a “rough day” could end up either way.
By Shiela Reed

I didn’t realize just how restricted I was today. Mentally, emotionally, physically – which of course blocks much hope for an opportunity for an expansive spiritual or etheric experience.

As the end of my work day came to a close and I finally released myself of its grip. I went for a much needed brisk walk where I really felt the physical restriction in my body and the seize on my mental and emotional being. As my body felt the ache of just walking my mind started to let go and free flowing thoughts came back to me. It’s not like this is the first time I’ve ever felt all of this. But there was a kind of blazing hot level of awareness that came in and I KNEW it was my inner me saying “what the F happened today?!” This level of restriction is so destructive and I realized clearly once again that I CHOSE IT! Yes again it’s not a super new concept or first time feeling for me over the years, but I am ALWAYS amazed at the clarity and “brightness” of this awareness and conversation.

I wasn’t mad or irritated nor did I turn away from what I was witnessing and experiencing, instead I felt this kind of new sense of “neutral acceptance” but even that doesn’t fully explain how it felt. I truly felt it all – “let go”. It didn’t matter the why, or that is was done, but that I didn’t want it now. I could see and feel deeply that at this moment I felt strong and confident and I had a say so! All at this same time there was a flood of past along with this current time of how I have exerted SO MUCH energy trying to “live up to other standards”. So much so, that I have a really hard time defining what Shiela really wants or needs.

It’s a REAL struggle for an empath and energetically sensitive. Where and how do I fit when I have such a hard time trying to NOT always look at what makes others happy or how by me being or doing a certain way, THEY might be pleased… yes yes it’s part of an ego issue.. it’s been a regular work in progress for me and today as another layer got ripped off, I noticed it actually kinda doesn’t even sting as bad anymore.
I know it’s me. I know I can say, do, and be different. I still am working on what that truly looks like. In the mean time, I’m ok and I’m enough, just where and how I am.

To share another moment of beauty and one where I would have possibly missed the totality of the connection to the full circle of the moment…

As I walked, I went past a local skilled nursing facility. I am lost in my thought while releasing the above mentioned “stuff”.. processing my day, thinking how hard today was, but equally how fortunate I am, and I look up at one of the windows and see a little old lady standing there looking out. I have on a bright orange sweatshirt so I know she sees me and I start to waving as big as I can and smiling as big as possible. She waves back and my heart just warmed…. then, I started to sob. I felt how this made her day, the simpleness of seeing a person outside who smiled and waved. I felt both her happiness and a sadness, then I felt a message from her – “be grateful child, be grateful you are there and not here. Enjoy that beautiful walk outside, embrace the beauty around you and especially YOU’RE OWN UNIQUE BEAUTY. Don’t be afraid to share that and let your light shine”.

The tears flowed as I walked until I had to just sit with that for a bit. I sat and took at my surroundings. I let that all sink in. Under the circumstances with the restrictions at this time, I knew what she meant. Then a man in a small truck pulled up, he asked if I had heard if anyone was sick in here yet. I said I did not know since I do not work here, but I know this has to be hard on them. He said his mom was here (yes, you too thought it was going to be the same lady right?! Lol) – She actually was in a different hall and he told me how he comes each day and brings his daughters dog to show her as they go by and they talk on the phone. He said she tells him how she feels like she is “in jail”. He can’t even bring her food she likes anymore and some of the folks don’t have a window. They are not able to dine together so they are alone in their rooms.
I shared that I work in child welfare and while the restriction is hard, it obviously is meant to try and keep folks in facilities like this, where they are in close proximity- from getting sick. Yet I SO understand the hard effect this has on these folks here.
He said, “oh you’re a counselor, my daughter is too, but she is in Denver at a place hiring people”… it is hard and we agreed we sure wish there could be visitors. A car came up behind him so he said good bye and went on…

I sat and cried a bit more and then started to walk back home. In the front of the home I had a feeling, one that made me wish I could go in and volunteer time to visit with them. I decided to hold that in my heart and see what grows from it in the future… when we are allowed social contact again.

There truly is beauty in every moment if we can just let go of all of our restrictions and “expectations”. I can’t say this will miraculously make tomorrow better. In actually, I know by itself, it won’t. It can’t. It doesn’t work like that. It’s truly minute by minute choices that grow our days. They are never the same, because we are in just enough of a different space today than yesterday.

So while I hope to not forget “yesterday” – tomorrow I have to remember to make the choices that create the day I really want to see…
This was a good “lesson” kind of day and not something I’d trade. Just hopefully “tweak” a little tomorrow.

What a blessing to allow my true sensitivity to come out today.
Thank you – much love

Shiela

Our contributions – Where do we fit?

Our contributions – Where do we fit?
by Shiela Reed

(I first saw this article the first part of April 2020 and I immediately connected to it, but it was truly on just one personal level- so it kept coming back to me and now has resonated to expand to a deeper connected meaning to share as a blog.) Thank you for checking it out… I hope it expands even further for you. 💓

https://www.papercitymag.com/culture/generation-x-earns-respect-conronavirus-pandemic-stay-home/

[My initial response] –

Ahhhhhh! This makes sense now! 😉😆

So maybe I’m NOT the only one who hasn’t turned on a TV in weeks?!

I guess that’s why I haven’t been too bored yet.

Yes I miss friends and being in person social things but I’ve appreciated and enjoyed my solitude. I’m pretty sure I’m really more introverted than it may have always appeared… 💙

[After it kept coming back to me for more reflection] –

I see this article now as one possibility of why the stay at home thing hasn’t been exactly horrible for me – yes it’s been an adjustment- it took a minute to reorganize my own brain around how I was managing my days. It became very obvious that my work day was something I “compartmentalized” and tried to “leave behind” when I was physically leaving a building! That became impossible with it sitting at my kitchen table. There was no training or assistance with how to do this… I had to rely completely on my own skill set and draw from my experiences as well as go deeper into “trusting” my own inner guidance.

It’s been a struggle, even though I feel like I have a pretty decent level of “awareness”.
So while I, like most others I imagine, continue to “adjust” and hopefully explore what this time is meaning for us and what it’s showing us – I personally am trying to reconnect and harness a deeper level of compassion for everyone and everything. I truly don’t want to “miss the lesson(s)”.

I am and will continue to learn and grow. I love this opportunity- it isn’t and hasn’t been easy. There are a lot of “shadows” when we dig within. But it’s ok to see those and explore what it is that’s holding me/us back. And honestly ask – Do we even want to?

While this article above talks about my particular generation- I know that no “one generation” has the total answer or ability to make it alone.
For example another article about the future and specifics to this virus connects the important role of millennial’s to become the leaders of the future. As well as the important contribution the older generations can make.

https://mailchi.mp/transcodes/from-zero-to-hero-are-millennials-the-secret-sleepers-of-global-collective-healing-truth-talk-tomorrow-12pmedt-on-facebook?e=ef59375d87

I have also seen many stories about other generations that have lived through extremely challenging times and have great advice to share. So there is a lot out there…

To me, it’s all such an important reminder that we ALL have something to contribute. Be it in a family, a team, a work environment, our community or the world as a whole. We can ALL learn from one another if we choose to see it that way. Yes, the future belongs to the younger generations – that used to be US. Just as it USED to be our parents, grandparents and ancestors.
They all did the best they could with what they knew and could at the time. Just like we are trying to do. Sure some probably made “poor decisions on purpose”… we just need to remember that as long as we are doing the best we can today and make a real effort to NOT purposely choose harm to others, our planet, ourselves… we will at least be contributing to a collective of change and hopefully toward positive collaboration with our whole system and the universe.

I know that got a little “woowoo” for some, but I’m trusting that the feeling and meaning behind it will still land in your heart like it has in mine.

I just wanted to share today… 😊 thanks for listening. ❤

Be well, stay safe, and continue to grow in love and light
Shiela

Another message in March: What is Essential?

Another message in March: What is Essential?

By Shiela Reed

We are in a time of learning. Recognizing we are all “essential” in our right. As we watch things unfold we recognize that things we thought were “true” and/or important- may not have been as much so…

I have observed our country, our states, cities and town, our agencies, and families begin to truly struggle with this. Now acknowledging things that have been taken for granted as actually being “essential” all along while other things had been being treated as “necessary” really are not.

Unfortunately some are still holding onto old ideals and there is a power struggle. All around us as well as within. While I am saddened by the way some are handling it, I am equally refreshed by the fortitude of many others. We individually have many things to “work through” and THIS part of the process will be what heals the whole (the collective).

I hope as the clarity comes, the courage will not be too far behind. I continue to say the serenity prayer in these times as it helps to refocus me.

“God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

As we settle in the next round of expanding “shelter in place” – I cannot help but feel all the information coming in regarding how to care for ourselves, loved ones, and those most important to us. We may even find ourselves reevaluating who those people truly are. There are some very wonderful things being shared and extremely creative individuals sharing their gifts. Which we each have. I am reminded that even sharing that with one other person makes a difference and expands our vibrations of love by at least ten fold.

As this last week was a personal struggle on some levels, I would like to share why and what clarity came to me at the end of it…

My place of employment (like many) scrambled to come up with ways for the bulk of the workforce to work from home.
I cannot imagine the added layers of thought and debate it took and continues to take to make these hard decisions.
With information changing minute to minute and the overall pressure of the unknown over all.
While I saw the resolve of a large agency workforce – even if it wasn’t always pretty – we made it through one of the toughest weeks.

There was a lot of “hard”.
Struggles to make “office situations” become workable from home.
Shifting very serious policies and procedures to best accommodate the situation so the people we care for could still be cared for.
Deciding who worked from where and when. Who still needed to see people, who could briefly go to the office or not.
Figuring out how that all gets tracked and documented without having our usual tools.

The only thing that I ended up noting that did not make sense was the appearance of adding a new “initiative/task” as an “emergency” thing to do this same week. I still am questioning WHY? Why right then in the midst of a pandemic crisis did something become emergent? When staff were already uneasy, confused, and stressed. To me this was poor timing and a poor choice to inflict such unnecessary and undue added stress on a workforce that is NEEDED so desperately to remain healthy!

We all know these days that added stress lowers ones immune system and thus increases risk for illnesses. THIS is NOT the time to add stress! Even if there is something that is immediately needed (as was the case for many first responding agencies) there are different ways to approach that with an already stressed staff.

These are unprecedented times and we NEED people in leadership positions that will start thinking, behaving, and then acting compassionately. Not dictating or power mongering keeping people stuck in their fear, anxiety and worry.

This can easily hold true for any of us in any roll. Parents toward their kids, friends to other friends, bosses to employees, spouse to spouse..ect. if we ourselves don’t recognize where we are functioning from, we can all easily slip into this place of fear, anger, resentment etc – and then it can tend to lead to actions of over controlling.

Or course there are also some not so nice people out there who have no desire or interest in noting anything about themselves and will take this type of opportunity to run over as many people as they can – and to those people WE may need to open our mouths and have a voice to say that it is NOT OK when it crosses our personal boundaries.

Not because we are “better” but because in our hearts we recognize that it does not meet with our own integrity. This is our point of choice. Say something, yet we may still have to realize that if there is no change, WE then choose to stay or go.

I realize this can be a tough one to sort through. I struggle here frequently. So I try to remember- that it is the WISDOM to know the difference in what our true essentials are, after all… 😉

Peace, love, and blessings
❤ Shiela

The Grace I’ve been Given for my AA “birthday”

The Grace I’ve been Given for my AA “birthday”
By Shiela Reed
The grace I’ve been given started with a choice I made. Each and every time it’s been about me relinquishing my pride just enough to allow for a change that has healed me a little more than the day before.
Sometimes these have been very obvious pivotal moments that created a very different path. Other times it’s been very subtle.
During times of deep reflection and contemplation I become very aware of the blessing of Grace and am reminded that I am to be grateful for these opportunities to grow, even when they have tested me to what I think are my limits and I wonder why…This is my truth from when I turned to AA 14 years ago. As one of the pivotal BIG moments that changed the trajectory of my life. That choice was a stepping stone to multiple others and the things I’ve been open to learn about myself simply wouldn’t have been able to take hold without that one decision.
There’s no doubt I was a “hot mess”. Even if most people didn’t even see it that way. It wasn’t as “obvious” on the outside. There were binges enough but not exactly what many people would “add up” to being “a problem”. Sure, later, it may have made sense as an “oh yeah, I could see that” – but a small few really could see…

I was broken inside – but not unmendable. My “link” to my soul self had big gaps and while I saw and knew it was there, the distance between that and what my mind was seeing as “reality” – felt like the Grand Cannon. So I suffered silently and alone. Bouncing back and forth across this “canyon”. Touching base with my true self quietly yet not being able to fully connect it with a “true” living life. This kept me “unwell” and separate. Separate from Source and struggling to have a true connection with myself and others. When I was able to admit the damage and totality of what was being affected INSIDE ME… THAT was when it changed.I barely remember or recognize that life anymore. I think fondly of the times and “fun” and less of the pain since working through all that years ago, but I stay forever aware of the underlying components that create room for backsliding and relapses – of spirit and intention- that could negatively affect my inner integrity and ultimately have the potential to lead me to detrimental choices and behaviors.

My journey of self reflection and personal growth is a real matter of true “life or death” for me. No it isn’t always perfect, nor will it ever be. I have as many rough days as great ones, but I try my best to be thankful for them all.

While I find some interest and satisfaction and even elements of importance in reflection… I know it cannot become stuck lamenting over “should haves” or “could haves”. Each day is new and I have something new to learn. I am no longer that person, yet that person is very much a part of me. Just as our childhoods or pasts are no longer “us” and doesn’t need to “define”/confine us.. they are still very much a PART of us.I may run back into people from my past, I am sure I remember things “differently”.. it is interesting to reflect- but know that I am a new person with new things about me to get to know. That’s the relationship I have with myself today because I’ve been blessed to have it… one choice at a time.

It truly is a “one day at a time” focus that helps maintain neutrality and keeps us from getting stuck in the past or becoming too afraid of the future.

Today I am even more aware of the importance of not going back into the darkness of silence. I do not need to boast or brag or have an egotistical type of pride. (One that is based on thinking it is ALL my doing.) I know this is not the full truth. YES, it is MY choice, and for that I AM proud. Yet I realize to have the opportunity, to be open, and be shown those windows to my soul, is a divine blessing from somewhere greater than me.

For this sharing and oneness of sacred space, I am forever humbled and grateful as my soul/true self connects with my creator and the Divine.

Thank you for another year, another moment in time…

Much love and blessings and thanks for sharing this special time with me. ❤

Shiela

Knowing Someone… What to Consider

Knowing someone… what to consider.

By Shiela Reed

It’s funny how we can think we know someone through social media..or simple encounters and forget these “reflections” are just glimpses of a whole. These partial aspect of a person, come forward for many reasons and it can be easy to “judge” or “perceive” as if we know them.

I imagine this is often how celebrities must feel, as they put forth a part of them or a projection but have many more components that are missed by those that don’t “know them” deeply or personally.
We all do this, we all even share and project without thinking why we are even doing it. Sometimes we are left wondering why we received certain “reactions” – without realizing we may have kind of “invited it”. Yet we hope for and usually are wishing for something else.

Our depth of mindfulness helps us gain some navigation skills in these areas and I always find it interesting how I (we) can fluctuate so much from day to day.
This is the part that has my most attention and awareness these days as the true effort (in my “world” anyway) is being able to learn how to stay closer to the “center”. It is and can be a daily challenge. We are human beings after all.. with free will. We do not all choose the same. We do not see things the same. Yet the many underlying similarities are very much the same. Call them “innate needs” maybe but it goes deeper than that. A deeper desire for compassion, love, and understanding. The other layers of emotions block us from seeing THOSE similarities. Fear, guilt, shame, hate.. take us in the opposite direction and it becomes hard to “see” our own truth.

So we project, we reach out in awkward ways. We assume we know others when we don’t. Others assume they know us, when they don’t. We can easily feel struggles of the insecurities and loneliness this brings and if we succumb to that or become stuck on that loop… the despair, depression, hopelessness, and anxiety that we have “lost control” takes over.

It is my hope that we all are given the Grace and find the opportunities to be REAL people with one another. Minus our judgements and freeing us up to be ok with choosing who is “good for us” (and wanted in our lives) and who is not. While also remembering it is absolutely OK when someone else chooses that we are not for them. It means nothing more than that we are not a good match. Or maybe even not a good match “anymore”. It is OK.

It’s a bit ironic maybe that we also need to learn to do this for ourselves as well. Letting go of habits, routines, thought patterns, etc that no longer serve our higher good, can be just as tough, but equally necessary for our growth.
I guess I share this as a long version of my own thought process and feeling into my emotions utilizing Facebook as one of my main social media platforms. I both enjoy it and dislike it. I have learned I have to be VERY aware of the technological manipulation that surrounds us and how easy it is to “get played”. I’m actually a rather private person. While I will “share” things, I am very conscious of the fact that it is “out there” and can never be taken back. I do not want to “fear” it, but it is a reality. I also know that when I am feeling that place of loneliness and disconnectedness – this (i.e. social media- Facebook) can be both a place of huge support or a driver of further sadness and loneliness. So, yes it can be hard to “choose” how I will “react” – and it is much more so when I don’t know why I am even trying to “know” someone else when I don’t know where I am at for that moment.

I’m kind of laughing right now as I think of the many ways I’ve wanted to “lash out” on Facebook when I am feeling no responses or unsupported. I’ve thought about closing it out completely, I’ve thought I’d do a “lecture” to my “friends” – I’ve thought I’d silently just let it go and delete everyone and start over with individual friend requests. Lol Then I realize it’s silly to have spent that time on something that isn’t even vital to my daily life. Yet I acknowledge my enjoyment on being “in touch” with as many people out there as possible because there is no other platform to do so in such magnitude.

So, I am reminded to “take it all with a grain of salt” – enjoy the parts that like, remember I only know the aspects of people as they show me and they only know me for what I choose to show them. Beyond that, the closest parts of my life are within me and those I choose to physically, emotionally and energetically surround myself with… and the same is true for each of  you.  🙂

Many blessings and open awareness to all – Shiela 🙂

Food and Eating – the Connection to Choices

Food and Eating – the Connection to Choices

by Shiela Reed

This topic comes around off and on for me every once in a while but this year I have noticed myself having a whole new level of inner dialogue about it.  I’ve always had some points of personal awareness regarding food and eating and I haven’t had a life long struggle – but I have for sure had my moments and found myself learning something new about myself and my relationship with food.

I have ALWAYS loved food and to loved to eat it!  I have been an athlete, active, and probably have a decent “genetic make up” that would be considered mostly healthy – so in reality, I can’t complain much.  Instead – what I notice more and more is the INNER connection to food and “pings” I get with the thought of it, the types of it, the purposes of it, and all aspects of it – (for example, I don’t enjoy cooking, I enjoy eating, I see a social opportunity, I see connections to my inner being – both my heart moments AND I now also recognize the ego moments/payoffs).  So this year, as I personally have been feeling a need for expanding beyond this “basic” understanding and “need” – not just because I am hitting a mid-life point, haha, but also because I have recognized that there is a bit of a common “theme” going on in general for many folks.

So now appears to be a pivotal time to be paying attention to your body and it’s “true needs”. While that is widely individualized, one thing I have noticed for myself starting to come in this year is regarding the need to limit and maybe even begin to eliminate eating meats.
The whole topic of food for me has been a life long “thing” but not necessarily because I “struggled with my weight”. I really haven’t had that too bad. Yes there have been points here and there that got “out of control” and I had a few extremes but in reality, I have been fairly in tune with my body my whole life regarding what it “felt like eating”. Part of that reality was admitting/incorporating the fact that emotional and mental components totally played a part in this and as long as I remained aware and sometime a bit more “vigilant” about being on a more nutritious track, I knew very well how to “maintain” or loose 5 to 10 pounds.
I had my hardest struggle when I lost all “vigilance” and the next thing I knew I was over 50 pounds over weight. I simply didn’t know how to loose that much! So I needed some help during those times…
What I’m talking about here is the “knowing” what my true self body is guiding me toward and trusting that, even if I don’t understand “why”.

I’d like to share some observations and tid bits of information that have come to me and maybe spark your own interest in researching it further and “checking within yourself” to see where you are on this topic if you too have had some promptings to “change things” regarding food this year- beyond the usual “let’s get healthy”, I have a health condition so I better do it, etc..
I want to talk about how our body FEELS after consuming different things. Being in tune with that is super important. By adding the level of awareness that both our physical bodies and emotional bodies can “crave” or have a “need” – and knowing which and why we choose one or the other is a cool level of helpful awareness that really connects us to our physical bodies here on Earth.

For example as I feel deeper into this new “need” to let go of the dense nature of meat, it actually makes sense to my spiritual body and is in my own “right timing”. I say that because many people take stances on eating or not eating meat for a multitude of reasons, none of which is what I’m referring to here since it can lead to forms of judgement and defensiveness and then we may not see our own deep needs or connections to the topic. For example, I am an avid animal lover and while it may seem odd to some that I have continued to eat meat, it is part of my own journey into awaking that is for me to go through and discover.
What I find fascinating is that this year, this “change” has naturally started to occur from WITHIN me, not pressure from others or any form of guilt or any such thing. It is truly what my energy system is “telling me” it needs for my physical body to “conform to” as it is important for my own spiritual awakening.

Ironically (or really not so much LOL – thank you universe 😁) I have stumbled onto supporting information from several sources that support the notion that for our physical bodies to be best prepared to remain on physical Earth during these changing energy times (from 3D to 4 and 5D) our bodies need to be less dense to allow for abilities to move within and throughout the new grids more easily.
I know, I know, to some it may sound woowoo still, but every time I check within on this, I am given a definitive “YES” this is accurate. I have also noted random conversations with many people, many who are not connected to energy related work at all, and they too are reporting this “strange draw or desire” to physically “lighten up” and adjust the intake of meat in particular.
How wild is that?!
So that leads one to believe there is something to the collective shift and the universal energy message to help us prepare – IF we are at least in-tune within enough to hear some of it.

So where are you in all this “physical body shifting” thing? How do these words make you feel? Are you like “duh! That makes total sense?- I knew that?” – are you like “hmm now that you mention it, that actually sounds and feels accurate” or “um. Nope, doesn’t make any sense and I don’t get what you are talking about”.
Regardless, I sure hope you look and feel further into it for yourself and see what is there and make note of how it guides your future directions. Maybe it’s just a new eye opener to finding your hearts path. Maybe it’s the “ah ha I’m onto something new to learn about myself”, or maybe it’s a confirmation that I’m on the right track.

To check in regarding this for yourself, ask some clarifying questions from a deeper place within you, like: “Is that what I was going for or do I need to adjust things next time?” Do I recognize that maybe I ate a “bad” for me food but it met a “need”? Then go further and notice “Did my body feel bad or better?” If bad, then probably another choice in handling the “why” for that food choice, would likely be better the next time. If my body felt “good”, then it was probably a congruent choice and what both (body and energy) may have needed as a way to help release something blocked. (Often the deeper aspects of recognition, awareness, and acknowledgement are a catalyst for supporting this part of “letting go” as it can help diminish the amount of “power” the unknown/hidden parts of us had in the situation and we can actually be hanging on.  So an AWARE emotional eating release – i.e. I am choosing to eat this piece of cake and I know it is not the most physically healthy choice, but the sugar in it is going to assist me mentally to work through an emotional issue at this moment and once it is gone/over, I can/will release it – freeing me up to be open to a new or different choice the next time – as I simultaneously recognize I do NOT have to utilize this as a defense mechanism to blindly follow when I become emotional the next time – since I am now more AWARE than I was, about the ego pay-off/reasoning for the choice in the first place)

As always I hope this sparks curiosity and wonder about our body connections and our future connection here on planet Earth. 🌎  Be well…

Peace and love
Shiela

A Special Tribute – A Soulmate Animal

A Heartfelt Tribute – by Shiela Reed

I would like to share a special tribute to my special dog Bosco on what would have been his 17th birthday today.  As anyone that connects to animals will know, they can hold a deeply impactful place in our hearts.  And while I easily connect to animals and nature in general and enjoy their presence, I have been profoundly impacted by this particular bond/relationship.  So much so, I hope you can also feel what I mean and strength of such a connection.  May it also provide those of you that have had similar experiences, with a bit of comfort in the words and knowing that while we love, cherish, and hold these bonds, it is ok to “let go” and allow for them to be “free” as we know the true love and memories the relationship has held will forever be tucked sweetly in the graciousness of our hearts.

Bosco tribute

{I started his “tribute” before I knew it was going to end so soon

(10-8-18)

My love for you is unmeasurable. You have taught me much about unconditional love and how just a presence can be enough. When I think of you my heart explodes with a feeling so strong that I’m overcome with emotion. It amazes me that a little animal can have this effect on me, but what it is is a true vulnerability I feel safe to allow with your little heart and I just can’t quite seem to reach that space as easily any other time. I guess that is why I consider you my “soulmate dog”.

From day one when I saw you on Pet Finder I just knew you belonged with me and I would be your person to care for you for the rest of your life. When I got to see you in real life, the bond was equally set as you jumped from that tiny crate from a van that traveled from Kansas to St Charles with many other dogs. I waited patiently as others got their dogs until finally it was my turn and then there you were! They said you were “mean”, didn’t like men, but to me it was obvious you just didn’t “trust” and you needed someone with patience and understanding to help you. You must have sensed that too as you immediately became attached to me and is how it has always been from that day forward.

You have been my most stable and consistent part of my life and I am forever grateful. I know I have given you a wonderful life and you are appreciative of it all, yet imagining life without you is a little unbearable.

I have so many stories and forever memories, as we grew and survived some of the worst and best times together. You have heard my cries, seen me tears, felt my pain, and been a solid dependable life for my heart to cling to. We have ended up going many places and being together nonstop when it was just us.

Your love for the drive thru (notably french fries) and a little cappuccino here and there were bonding food moments. There is nothing I wouldn’t share with you or do for you. I love my car rides and you ended up loving them too. You are the best travel buddy and as bonded as we have been, I could take you anywhere and know you would be close by. I’ll never forget taking you to a horse show and how I could let you walk by me without a leash and nothing distracted you from me. ❤ You would sit and watch me play ball and anywhere we were, the world was good as long as you could see me and I you.
You are one of a kind and my heart will forever be connected with yours.

I have so many stories (who wouldn’t after 16 years) –  too many to share but I’ll remember them all within my heart.  I know we are both grateful to Nana Sandy for her equally loving care of you and special times you and she had too over the years.  The lessons of life I’ve learned from our special relationship continues to unfold and I am so grateful for you.  Each day is a gift. I am trying to remember this. Your looks at me were always trying to tell me that, funny how I missed that message far too often… for that I’m sorry, “life” sometimes seems to take over and we easily forget to slow down and enjoy “the little things/times”. But I know we did our best and we have had a wonderful life together.  Yet, I still would wish to have extra time with you.. To pet your head, be near, sit on the couch, hear you snore, and be still. Even when you would pace around and follow me and my crazy chaotic mornings all you wanted by the end of the day was for me to sit on the couch with you and just be close.. and I’m here.. I’ll always be here… And you will always be with me.. for that I am eternally grateful .

So here even at the end (Dec 2018) –I “hear” you. We have had many “talks” and our “agreement” is being met. When you were diagnosed with heart failure at 12 you agreed to stay until after you were 16. You have kept that… not always totally easy, but we kept “checking in” and agreed it was ok to keep going. We also agreed when the time came I would “be with you”. Which is what I did during your last week, until our last goodbye. We also agreed we needed to be at home – and you would go on your own.  That too was met… we remained open to a backup plan of someone coming here to help the transition IF needed, but it wasn’t necessary… we did it and it was just “us” as always… I am here, I will always be here and know part of you will always live in my heart.

Although you are gone, I feel the ways you will remain with me.
Despite the days that pass, I still miss you
I know this heartache… I’ve decided it’s a small price to pay for the pure joy, unconditional love, and life lessons you have given in return.
How blessed I’ve been to know such companionship. Thank you always for picking me to be your person.

Peace to you my Bosco –  my “soulmate dog”.}

Bosco
His watchful eye always upon me.

Thank you for allowing me to “let go” a little more and tuck a bit more of the pain of his loss into the safety of my heart space.

Much love and peace

Shiela

Technology and Judgement

by Shiela Reed

While the advancement of our technological world has great benefits, it is also extremely important to remember the need to connect within and truly know your inner self.
We can utilize technology in very positive ways but it can also hijack our energy systems if we are not careful.
Here are some examples that just pop into my head- people have cameras and ways to watch EVERYONE these days, so while it is great for “catching” and seeing people in terrible acts, it can also feed the judgement machine and create an atmosphere void of the ability to show compassion or even forgive. It can push down the energy of someone else. And while we may “feel justified” based on our own moral compass, we might consider using caution about how far we go.
Today let’s say your minding your own business walking in your neighborhood and people have cameras up. You don’t really know or notice it think about it, but as you walk you have a wedgie (you know, underwear stuck uncomfortably in the wrong spot) and you go to digging to get it loose. And go on about your walk. A week or so goes by and some tags you on social media as a video is circulating making fun of what you did because you were “caught” on someone’s camera!
So what is “fair” here? The technology wins and you are just a “spectacle” for everyone’s amusement? Some will claim you are too sensitive.. (this may even add to why people become so “paranoid”).. these are things that can just go too far and instead of the human race showing compassion (hey I bet we have all picked the underwear out of our butt at some point) – is THIS what we are about now? Jumping to conclusions, making our own stories up about others? Putting people down or making fun when we have our own imperfections?… of course things can be funny and amusing. But remember, it’s better to be laughed WITH than AT…
One could stick with the argument that people have gotten “too sensitive” and while there is absolutely truth to the fact that many of us get really good and comfortable playing “the victim” and don’t look within either- instead we project and judge in those situations too and “blame others” for “picking on us”..

I guess what I keep noticing and what keeps getting brought back to my attention and what I was led to share is that without a healthy true inner compass connected to your true you and the divine creator of life, we’re just a bunch of ego heads running around banging into each other. Feeling “justified”, self righteous, judgey, and disconnected …
Remember too, we cannot truly whole heartedly connect with others if we are not first connected to our real self in divine light and love. I get that it sounds woowoo, but I bet you know that feeling point I’m referencing.
So in this world of growing technology, stop and think.. I know it doesn’t lend itself to that because everything is moving so fast and then our systems try to keep up, so we think we should also be moving faster. But this is why we end up exhausted and depleted and “crash” energetically = Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and/or etherically.
It’s not to “bash” technology – our own awareness and choices about it is what makes it turn out as a “good” thing for us or not. I’ll leave you with what I find to be a cool example, at least in my mind. 😊
When I am centered and aligned within, and need an “answer” or some guidance on a topic, I take a moment to focus in on being open to what I “need” – what is “best” according to my true self – and I do not focus in on judging whatever comes forward. I then may look something up on the internet and “happen” to find exactly what I am “needing” at the moment. (And I can just “feel” that it is “true” to me)
It may be looking for a new doctor, it may be looking for a certain crystal, or oil.. I just try to remain “open” and this is when technology has helped me a great deal.
It really is a big topic and I’m sure one that has layers upon layers of “debate” and discussion. But at the core, at least how it comes forward to me, is that it boils down to our own connection first and then our CHOICE.
Where is your heart aligned?

Deep thoughts and heartfelt guidance sent your way..
Shiela

Accomplished: a personal share for 2019

Sharing some accomplishments- a summary from 2018 that carries into 2019 – by Shiela Reed
You know, there are just times when it’s really important to state out loud how proud we are of ourselves. And I’m going to make that moment now and share it with anyone that is interested.
It is not a boastful pride. Instead it is deeply reflective and very much a summary of many things that have added up to this moment. Including a LOT of personal sessions as recent as this week (written March 30th 2019) that have truly helped me through another “rough spot”.
But today as I received another certificate of accomplishment and smiled from ear to ear thinking about what it took to get this this year, I felt my heart beam with the kind of pride only born of a true heartfelt deep self love and a respect for the deeper processes that have been at work within my life the last many years of this lifes journey.
Today I am also humbled and filled with gratitude for the connection I have been able to continue to foster and grow along with and between my inner self and divine creator. It truly amazes me… ❤
I received an official certificate of completion of the 100 hr QiFit Instructor program from the medical Qi Gong program at Zen Wellness. 🧘‍♀️
As some may know, this year I have decided it’s time for me to pull together what I’ve been working on and start my own Energy guidance business. This is so I can share with others the things I have been learning and offer assistance to others in my own unique way.
As I’m working on that, this was a beautiful reminder to reflect on WHAT I have recently accomplished and WHY I started doing it all in the first place.
I recall being both nervous and excited in May 2018 when I completed certification as a Level I and II Energy Coach through transCODES with a Mastery certificate in GRACE Integrity. It took around 2 years AFTER several years of other individual year long programs. 🙏🧘‍♀️❤
Then in December 2018 I finally tested and officially earned my License in Social Work! 🤓 And Iiterally cried!
In all I am realizing that 2018 was a hell of a summary of MANY things I had been working on and can now see why I’m being led to focus this year on putting it all together in a form that expresses this all from my heart. 💖
So as I both excitedly AND humbly started to reflect on all that I have been doing, I cannot help but feel very proud of the fact that I have COMPLETED things I started and felt were so important for me personally as well as discovered how my heart has felt it will be important to share with others within and through my new endeavor. ❤
I truly hope you keep an eye out for the services I will be offering in case they are things you or someone you know might find interesting. 🌹
I am so grateful for the multiple layers of support in my life and appreciate you for reading to the end. Thank you for taking the time and sharing in my joy. 😊🙏
Peace, Love, and Blessings
Shiela

March Message of the Month: Stay Grounded in love and light with Mother Earth

by Shiela Reed

March 6th first que- to this message

This is how we make it through. Several of my other mentors are talking about it and in my inner being I can feel the resonance of this truth.
I’m part of multiple things at play in the world right now. Just as you are. I choose them in different degrees actually. Some are for my own soul growth and expansion while others are interactions that are assisting others through their own journeys. Some of those are definitely more lovely and enjoyable than others. However, there is still purpose in it all.

I find the reminder to be hugely impactful right now as there is a “next layer” I need to personally journey through and that is my body and food. As the energies shift so strongly right now and we move into the crystalline grid system, I feel my body having a hard time adjusting sometimes. I have noted that a dietary change is in order, but my mind/ego has not wanted to let go of that old connection. I’m continuing to work through this journey because I also know it is necessary for my body system to sustain me. Yet that draw to “not change” eating habits and choices is becoming more and more painfully obvious how outdated they are.
Of course I’m trying to give myself room and lots of grace to get there, but my ego mind is already trying to spin it as “if it won’t matter that much” if I don’t change anything. My inner self immediately says “inaccurate”.. so.. it’s time, like it or not.
So I’m needing to go all the way back to how I feel about food. How and why I eat what I do and notice how it’s different if it’s just me or when I’m with someone else…

Does this resonate with anyone else? This late in the month and I’m still struggling and even had health kind of issues so it amazes me at how blocked we can remain and no amount of “willing it” is the answer. Sometimes it truly is the work of going layer by layer until there is a release, and then of course we find… yes, you guessed it! More layers through to even deeper connections. 😊

Yet every time at every layer, the grounding in natural Earth energies is found to be comforting and uplifting. As the gentle (yes and sometimes harsh) reminder that the universe and natural order of things unseen prevail while the more connected and aware we become to this, we find a deeper connection to our inner selves and relationship with the divine.

I hope you have all found ways to ground in love and light with mother earth this month..if not, there is still plenty of time.
Happy slightly belated spring equinox. 🌻☀️

blessings

Shiela