DIGGING UP THE PAST TO KNOW MY ENERGY by Bryan Moss

When I began to learn about energy work I was surprised to find out that in order to really be proficient at it (whether reading my own or others) I needed to be willing to look at my past. The good, the bad, and even the very ugly.

Why?

Well, to spell it out in basic steps:

*We’re born as energetic beings right off the bat! This is our divine right. Feeling and reading energies is a basic skill set, just as speaking is to most. We are born to read energies!

* However, while being raised and taught by others (parents, teachers, caretakers) we’re influenced by THEIR interpretation of life. What THEY learned. What THEY think is best for us as we’re growing up. Good, or not so good, many of these “lessons” were ingrained in our ‘caretakers’ way of life back when THEY were young whipper snappers.

*What happens is, as we grow up, anything taught is either consciously on our minds AND/OR stored in our subconscious, and forgotten about by our conscious minds. Events, emotions not expressed, rules, regulations, all of the “how to’s”….EVERYTHING is stored there. We take the ‘caretakers’ words for granted. Like their ways and means is the law of life, we accept them as the only truths without questioning them.

*When adulthood comes upon us, often we feel conflicted about certain feelings we’re having in regards to relationships and experiences. When a different view, or mind set, is presented to us one can start to feel confused and mixed up. Perhaps “things” just don’t make sense. Yet we feel a pull to honor our teachings because we were raised “that way”. So we immediately dismiss, or negate, anything that “goes against the grain” in spite of our inner promptings which are making us question those very ways.

*It’s well known throughout the health community those buried, unacknowledged emotions can create a host of “problems”. Mental illness, physical symptoms, dysfunctional relationships are a few examples. Along with all of this we’re trying to discern what’s of use to us, or not useful and can be discarded.

I’ll give a couple of examples from my own journey to help illustrate how it’s beneficial to look at past programming instilled in us:

Recently, I recalled being around 4 or 5 and was angry and upset with my mother earlier that day. I decided I was going to run away. So I loaded up my radio flyer red wagon with my favorite toys in my bedroom, rolled it through the living room and out the front door while my mom was gossiping on the phone in the kitchen to one of the next door neighbors. She assumed I was going out front to play. I rolled my red wagon of toys as far as half way down the block, got scared, turned around, and went back home. At this time I don’t remember what I was mad about and that really isn’t important. But what is important is for me to acknowledge I had anger towards my mother even at that age. I was too young to express it constructively and thought I just had to get away from her. So I used the “flight” response in order to cope with my anger. Not knowing how to release the anger it was shoved to the side and forgotten about..buried. So it’s tossed into the “piggy bank of anger” and accumulates interest stored as anger towards not only my mother, but, unintentionally, can affect my views towards women in general. This can certainly create the perfect set up for a dysfunctional relationship with any future partner down the road. It’s impossible to discern specific anger issues in another until I’ve become familiar with feeling my own anger.

Another example is how it was ingrained in me that whatever problem or question I had, I needed to look outside of me for answers. Rather than figure it out myself, or even suggested to me that many answers are already within, I was taught to go to an “expert”. They would know better than me–about me. Externalization is promoted in collective society. Being taught to look to others for answers indirectly disempowers ones own innate, God given right to look within. Religion is a great example of this. One has to go through a middle man (clergy, priest, minister, rabbi..) in order to learn and communicate with God (higher power). Often it’s not encouraged for one to go about their spiritual journey without the approval of others. As mentioned in the previous example, it’s all of the programming and trained responses drilled into us, so much so, we begin taking on a false identity to appease others to make them happy. Before you know it you’ve become a person that the “real you”, your True Self, doesn’t really know but patiently puts up with knowing that the time will eventually come when you realize most everything you thought was the law of the land is, at best, all backwards and full of bullocks. Programmed to follow along with the collective herd, you never took the time to discover those “rules and ways” yourself, thus, never getting to know the essence of YOU, your inherited True Self. The Self that is already complete with the peace, love and any of the bells and whistles you may need. You start to figure out the journey isn’t about learning and accumulating more paradigms. It’s about getting rid of all of that and getting back to the basics you were born with…your True Self.

Re-experiencing (meaning NOT conceptualizing but FEELING it out) and accepting the fact those events happened to me allows the experience to go through me instead of hanging on to it by hiding it in the corners of my mind and trying to put it out of my memory. You see? By ignoring those feelings I was throwing gasoline onto those simmering embers where the inevitable spontaneous combustion was, and is, bound to happen ( as suggested above in the various forms of illnesses and dysfunctional behaviors). Over time, I’ve been willing to “let my guard down” and feel into the uncomfortable memories/ experiences in my past. I found that stripping away all of the conditioned and programmed B.S. actually allows me to feel more and ACCEPT what happened to me, not ignore it. Thus enabling me to get to know my self, True Self, better. Is this easy to do? NO. My critical inner voice, or ego (as other energy workers refer to it), kicks, screams, and throws temper tantrums because it’s sole purpose is to feel safe and survive at any cost, including preventing me from feeling and experiencing life fully with my Heart, the doorway to understanding my own energies.

I hope my examples may provide you with a clearer idea why we all should be willing to look into our past. Not to remind ourselves what injustices may of happened, but as a learning tool of accepting those experiences and enabling us to know ourselves (energies) a little bit better as we move forward on our own Heart felt journeys. It’s in the understanding of the lessons from our past, we can let go and grow. Grow into the expansive energy field of compassion and empathy for Self and others.

Digging up the past to utilize as a lesson, and NOT to dwell on it and cave into self shame, guilt, anger, (nor the popular mental gymnastics “could ofs, would ofs, should ofs”) is actually a very powerful energy modality for one’s growth.

Excuse me while I go to the hardware store and purchase a big snow shovel.

GETTING PAST THE JIBBER JABBER by Bryan Moss

What do I mean by getting past the jibber jabber? You know, the brain noise. The, what seems like to be, 5 zillion voices demanding dominance inside our 3D skulls. The voice of reason..whatever THAT is. The ‘critical inner voice’ (which was the topic of the previous blog about the critical inner voice), the self pronounced decision maker. The self-acclaimed ruler with enough voices to drive a ventriloquist mad. I know I’ve been, and still am from time to time, the puppet to my Ego’s** ventriloquist act.

**Definition of Ego in this blog:——-> Ego = ALL voices inside of your thinking Head/Mind, brain noise, jibber jabber, the countless decisions, the countless answers, the even more countless unanswered questions, the second guessing, the judge, the executioner…get the picture?

What to do when presented with multiple options to mull over, or the opposite happens, a decision has to be made that instant? I’ve found that both may be resolved with the same simple solution. Now it doesn’t get rid of the brain noise. Actually part of this solution is ALLOWING the Ego’s jibber jabber talk away. It’s going to anyway. Please take my word for it. Use my blood, sweat and tears of years of trying to eradicate the Ego. Myself, and others, have come to a realization the mind doesn’t need to have a solution to anything. I could write a long 1000 word article on this but I can’t stand long winded ‘anythings’ when explanations can be short and sweet.

How to get past the jibber jabber?

The secret is under your nose. It’s your Heart. Your Heart’s brain. Others describe it as a ‘hunch’, ‘gut feeling’, ‘instinct’, ‘a knowing’…you know what I mean. It’s that first, initial nano-second of a thought the appears right before the brain noise invades. I try to use my Heart’s FEELINGS to make my choices. That gut feeling…does it feel like the right thing to do? Or, in spite of a mountain of evidence supporting it, does it FEEL funny? Funny as in….I should walk away from it? Or do nothing and be still and sit with it?

Yes. It’s scientifically proven the Heart has a brain of it’s own, separate from the cranial’s brain. There are cells in the Heart that can communicate to everything within the body on it’s own. Unlike the thinking brain upstairs, the Heart’s brain can discern decisions more accurately through feeling from our innate, born given, divinity of Love. Don’t get me wrong. This takes practice. Practice to stop the knee jerk reactions programmed into us. Practice to allow yourself to fail and learn through trial and error by listening to your Heart. Practice to place your trust in your Heart, not in the ‘rational’ thinking in your head. Though simple and effective, it means to practice, practice, and more practice in going with your Heart. The brain noise is going to try to out fox you, put doubt in you, give you every reason to listen to it. The trick is NOT to ignore it. Let it rant and rave. I know when I finally accepted the fact that the Ego is hard wired in me and just as much a part of me as my left arm, I accepted it and let it blah, blah, blah on and on. I envision ‘little Bryan’/Ego sitting in a corner, like a classroom in my mind just whining away. Over time, as I practice going with my Heart, the Ego’s noise is more in the background and not as annoying.

The truest answers are the simplest. What’s sad is that it’s the simple answers no one is willing to believe and try. We’re all programmed  to make everything difficult with lots of steps and rituals. We feel like we’re not worthy unless we go through a ‘test’ to prove our worthiness for any answers.

Keep it simple.

Go past the jibber jabber. End the insanity and dare to go a different path. Decide from your Heart. There’s a saying I go to all the time, “Simplicity is the highest form of art”. The Heart is my art on that canvas. I try to keep the lines simple. I suggest you do the same. It can help you get past the jibber jabber.

Technology and Judgement

by Shiela Reed

While the advancement of our technological world has great benefits, it is also extremely important to remember the need to connect within and truly know your inner self.
We can utilize technology in very positive ways but it can also hijack our energy systems if we are not careful.
Here are some examples that just pop into my head- people have cameras and ways to watch EVERYONE these days, so while it is great for “catching” and seeing people in terrible acts, it can also feed the judgement machine and create an atmosphere void of the ability to show compassion or even forgive. It can push down the energy of someone else. And while we may “feel justified” based on our own moral compass, we might consider using caution about how far we go.
Today let’s say your minding your own business walking in your neighborhood and people have cameras up. You don’t really know or notice it think about it, but as you walk you have a wedgie (you know, underwear stuck uncomfortably in the wrong spot) and you go to digging to get it loose. And go on about your walk. A week or so goes by and some tags you on social media as a video is circulating making fun of what you did because you were “caught” on someone’s camera!
So what is “fair” here? The technology wins and you are just a “spectacle” for everyone’s amusement? Some will claim you are too sensitive.. (this may even add to why people become so “paranoid”).. these are things that can just go too far and instead of the human race showing compassion (hey I bet we have all picked the underwear out of our butt at some point) – is THIS what we are about now? Jumping to conclusions, making our own stories up about others? Putting people down or making fun when we have our own imperfections?… of course things can be funny and amusing. But remember, it’s better to be laughed WITH than AT…
One could stick with the argument that people have gotten “too sensitive” and while there is absolutely truth to the fact that many of us get really good and comfortable playing “the victim” and don’t look within either- instead we project and judge in those situations too and “blame others” for “picking on us”..

I guess what I keep noticing and what keeps getting brought back to my attention and what I was led to share is that without a healthy true inner compass connected to your true you and the divine creator of life, we’re just a bunch of ego heads running around banging into each other. Feeling “justified”, self righteous, judgey, and disconnected …
Remember too, we cannot truly whole heartedly connect with others if we are not first connected to our real self in divine light and love. I get that it sounds woowoo, but I bet you know that feeling point I’m referencing.
So in this world of growing technology, stop and think.. I know it doesn’t lend itself to that because everything is moving so fast and then our systems try to keep up, so we think we should also be moving faster. But this is why we end up exhausted and depleted and “crash” energetically = Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and/or etherically.
It’s not to “bash” technology – our own awareness and choices about it is what makes it turn out as a “good” thing for us or not. I’ll leave you with what I find to be a cool example, at least in my mind. 😊
When I am centered and aligned within, and need an “answer” or some guidance on a topic, I take a moment to focus in on being open to what I “need” – what is “best” according to my true self – and I do not focus in on judging whatever comes forward. I then may look something up on the internet and “happen” to find exactly what I am “needing” at the moment. (And I can just “feel” that it is “true” to me)
It may be looking for a new doctor, it may be looking for a certain crystal, or oil.. I just try to remain “open” and this is when technology has helped me a great deal.
It really is a big topic and I’m sure one that has layers upon layers of “debate” and discussion. But at the core, at least how it comes forward to me, is that it boils down to our own connection first and then our CHOICE.
Where is your heart aligned?

Deep thoughts and heartfelt guidance sent your way..
Shiela

Accomplished: a personal share for 2019

Sharing some accomplishments- a summary from 2018 that carries into 2019 – by Shiela Reed
You know, there are just times when it’s really important to state out loud how proud we are of ourselves. And I’m going to make that moment now and share it with anyone that is interested.
It is not a boastful pride. Instead it is deeply reflective and very much a summary of many things that have added up to this moment. Including a LOT of personal sessions as recent as this week (written March 30th 2019) that have truly helped me through another “rough spot”.
But today as I received another certificate of accomplishment and smiled from ear to ear thinking about what it took to get this this year, I felt my heart beam with the kind of pride only born of a true heartfelt deep self love and a respect for the deeper processes that have been at work within my life the last many years of this lifes journey.
Today I am also humbled and filled with gratitude for the connection I have been able to continue to foster and grow along with and between my inner self and divine creator. It truly amazes me… ❤
I received an official certificate of completion of the 100 hr QiFit Instructor program from the medical Qi Gong program at Zen Wellness. 🧘‍♀️
As some may know, this year I have decided it’s time for me to pull together what I’ve been working on and start my own Energy guidance business. This is so I can share with others the things I have been learning and offer assistance to others in my own unique way.
As I’m working on that, this was a beautiful reminder to reflect on WHAT I have recently accomplished and WHY I started doing it all in the first place.
I recall being both nervous and excited in May 2018 when I completed certification as a Level I and II Energy Coach through transCODES with a Mastery certificate in GRACE Integrity. It took around 2 years AFTER several years of other individual year long programs. 🙏🧘‍♀️❤
Then in December 2018 I finally tested and officially earned my License in Social Work! 🤓 And Iiterally cried!
In all I am realizing that 2018 was a hell of a summary of MANY things I had been working on and can now see why I’m being led to focus this year on putting it all together in a form that expresses this all from my heart. 💖
So as I both excitedly AND humbly started to reflect on all that I have been doing, I cannot help but feel very proud of the fact that I have COMPLETED things I started and felt were so important for me personally as well as discovered how my heart has felt it will be important to share with others within and through my new endeavor. ❤
I truly hope you keep an eye out for the services I will be offering in case they are things you or someone you know might find interesting. 🌹
I am so grateful for the multiple layers of support in my life and appreciate you for reading to the end. Thank you for taking the time and sharing in my joy. 😊🙏
Peace, Love, and Blessings
Shiela

OUR CRITICAL INNER VOICE by Bryan Moss

For most of us our mind is non stop and busy, busy, busy. Some call it brain noise. Some religious groups refer to it as the devil. Counselors diagnose it as the unconscious. Shrinks peg it as the ego. However the term that I prefer to use is Critical Inner Voice (C.I.V.) or Ego.
You know what I mean. That “voice” in your head that’s non stop all day and possibly throughout the night. I know it second guesses everything I try to decide on. Then when I do decide on something? The C.I.V. presents another choice or another scenario. Then that makes me have doubts about the original choice I made because, after all..”If it was the right choice to begin with then why would other options present themselves afterwards?”
Or it loves to judge and argue and show others how “special” I am because I have a different perception on something. It motivates me, in a very sneaky and stealthy way, to “prove” myself. It has me thinking I need to “defend” my ways and views. It can lead me into a false sense of security by accumulating “stuff”. The latest electronic gizmos, gadgets, toys, accessories, properties, books, knowledge…. blah, blah, blah, and more blah. The absolute worse it can and WILL do….make me believe that I am THAT….. my Critical Inner Voice is my actual identity.
Now you can’t blame me. I, along with the collective (everyone else on the planet), was raised to believe this. However, many are starting to realize this is not the case. We’re not this meat sack of flesh (with no disrespect to our 3-D bodies–they need love too) containing a “soul”, “energy body”, “being”, _______(insert believe system). Our C.I.V. will always put our flesh/brain in first place mode, first and foremost. It wants to make it the center of our universe.
There lies the rub. Back in cave man days we used the C.I.V./Ego for basic survival mode. “MMMM..me hungry.” Then the primitives would go pick berries. “MMMMM…me thirsty.” They would drink from a stream. “MMMMM…EEEKKK!” They start running from the T-Rex about to eat them. Over the years dinosaurs no longer existed. Our Egos needed other things to occupy it’s mind. Thus, judgement, criticism, second guessing and self importance became only a few of the many tools/toys created to distract the collective from that one truth… we are NOT our mind/body with a soul inside of it. It’s the other way around. We ARE light bodies/souls with a body.
Light Bodies = Energetic Bodies using the 3-D body as a vehicle.
Where does the C.I.V./Ego fit within this paradigm? The 1960’s and 70’s movements pushed the ideas that by eliminating the voices in our heads all of our problems could be solved and enlightenment attained. They insisted we had to be sitting in the lotus position to show how we were really dedicated to the spiritual path and eventually rewarded by having no Ego/C.I.V. at all! No wonder everyone is dazed and confused. That is just not possible. Wake up and give up that whole enlightenment B.S.!!!
I learned through teachings and good ole’ trial and error it’s not about erasing my C.I.V./Ego. The Ego is part of the hard wire in our brain. As referred to before, it’s our survival mechanism with one purpose only….protection at no expense. So I’m learning it’s about ACCEPTING the fact I do have an Ego/C.I.V. that’s a part of me as much as my right arm is a part of my body. And out of that acceptance I have found that instead of buying into and being distracted by the “brain noise’ of life, it’s about observing that “brain noise” and possibly learning how it’s not my True Self. My True Self FEELS from my Heart. It’s my feelings that discern my journey’s decisions as I move forward. Not the ramblings of my C.I.V./Ego. Referring to the picture above….I’m not all of those balloons, as my C.I.V. would have me believe. They’re distractions from acknowledging the truth.
By paying 100% attention to putting one foot forward at a time, being totally present, and using my Heart’s intuition, all the while accepting the “brain noise” for what it is…..dealing with my C.V.I./Ego is a little easier.

March Message of the Month: Stay Grounded in love and light with Mother Earth

by Shiela Reed

March 6th first que- to this message

This is how we make it through. Several of my other mentors are talking about it and in my inner being I can feel the resonance of this truth.
I’m part of multiple things at play in the world right now. Just as you are. I choose them in different degrees actually. Some are for my own soul growth and expansion while others are interactions that are assisting others through their own journeys. Some of those are definitely more lovely and enjoyable than others. However, there is still purpose in it all.

I find the reminder to be hugely impactful right now as there is a “next layer” I need to personally journey through and that is my body and food. As the energies shift so strongly right now and we move into the crystalline grid system, I feel my body having a hard time adjusting sometimes. I have noted that a dietary change is in order, but my mind/ego has not wanted to let go of that old connection. I’m continuing to work through this journey because I also know it is necessary for my body system to sustain me. Yet that draw to “not change” eating habits and choices is becoming more and more painfully obvious how outdated they are.
Of course I’m trying to give myself room and lots of grace to get there, but my ego mind is already trying to spin it as “if it won’t matter that much” if I don’t change anything. My inner self immediately says “inaccurate”.. so.. it’s time, like it or not.
So I’m needing to go all the way back to how I feel about food. How and why I eat what I do and notice how it’s different if it’s just me or when I’m with someone else…

Does this resonate with anyone else? This late in the month and I’m still struggling and even had health kind of issues so it amazes me at how blocked we can remain and no amount of “willing it” is the answer. Sometimes it truly is the work of going layer by layer until there is a release, and then of course we find… yes, you guessed it! More layers through to even deeper connections. 😊

Yet every time at every layer, the grounding in natural Earth energies is found to be comforting and uplifting. As the gentle (yes and sometimes harsh) reminder that the universe and natural order of things unseen prevail while the more connected and aware we become to this, we find a deeper connection to our inner selves and relationship with the divine.

I hope you have all found ways to ground in love and light with mother earth this month..if not, there is still plenty of time.
Happy slightly belated spring equinox. 🌻☀️

blessings

Shiela

A personal “share” for “energy friends”…

A personal journal share by Shiela Reed

This post is a bit different from the others as it has a bit more “energy worker” lingo in it so for those that “get that”… maybe you can relate.  For those that are just starting to “relate”… I hope this resonates at a deeper level and opens more paths of personal awareness for you…

I’ve been in this interesting space the last couple weeks. During my vacation last week I found myself in what felt like “the void”. It was a most beautiful time of replenishment. My mind had planned to spend time being “creative” but my system really needed stillness and “presentness”, so that’s what I did. It helped a lot to re-strengthen my awareness as it was starting to be a little cloudy with mind chatter overlay. I’m really noticing my physical body feelings now when these things shift and occur which is really cool! I am noticing so much of the “inner conversations” that used to occur without my awareness and now I am able to interject, redirect, or even stop if it is not matching my heart at the moment or something I don’t purposely choose (I still choose ego stuff sometimes but am more conscious of it most days) 😊

It’s just been difficult to “rejoin” my physical world this time though. It’s hard to explain. It felt different. Like I chose to be “back”… yet there was no feeling of “down/despair/disappointment” nor any “high/giddiness/excitement”… just a feeling of being fully present in my body and my moment. Noticing, acknowledging and accepting it all. It felt so different physically I kind of didn’t want to move. At one point (maybe last night) I noticed my 5th and 6th chakras were too wide open and “information” was dumping in so fast it kind of gave me a slight headache. It also made my mental mind overload so I had to ask those areas to close up some!

Anyway, it’s been different and I wanted to share. My mind and ego parts are sure trying to judge and play that game with me about “not doing or being enough”… but I’m keeping it called into the light of my heart for the most part which has helped me “process” from that space. The main issue seems connected to knowing I have “knowledge” of things I can do, but I have both a feeling of “I want to, but I don’t want to”… so I’m still working through some new layers of where that is coming from. How I want it to look but not be so controlling about it all.. it’s so interesting to “wrestle” with how to have front end (projected) motivation and desire without the ego leading it. That now seems obvious as to why that is “together”, but my point is a bit of why I suspect changes have not really transitioned, my “passion” part isn’t fully active anywhere yet… or does it really have to be? Maybe that’s another form of an ego trap! Jeesh I have talked myself into a circle now. Lol.

Well, regardless, I have definitely found some new information behind it, so I’ll see where that leads me next. To be continued…

love and light,

Shiela

As 2018 Morphs into 2019…by Bryan Moss

2019..new beginnings. I find myself being very thankful and grateful. In retrospect, I’m thankful my insides were turned outward, sideways and upside down all last year. Peeling away the layers and layers of my ‘false self’ and revealing my True Self…I know that’s part of the journey. If I don’t do the journey, I don’t grow and learn more about myself.

**I’m grateful for my very dysfunctional family. In the grand scheme of things I know I’ve selected all of the players/actors in my 3D life for my growth. I’ve learned how to establish boundaries, let them go about their journey the way they wish to do it, and stop judging them and having expectations of them.
**I’m grateful I decided to sign up for the Heart Warrior program through transCodes, in March of 2016. Little did I know then the beautiful and loving relationships I’ve had the honor to develop with others in the transCodes community, with similar resonances to mine.
**I’m grateful to have learned what I’ve learned with energy work and how it relates to me.
**I’m grateful I respected and loved myself enough to kick myself in the butt to learn, not only energy work, but discovering new elements of my own energies.
**I’m grateful I’m starting to get the feeling of “letting go”. It feels like only in spurts, but at least it’s happening, and those moments are getting longer and longer.
**I’m grateful I’m finally giving myself permission to fuck up and not feel like a jerk whenever I do.
**I’m grateful I’m part of this website, which allows me a platform to share and perhaps prompt a visitor to go within for answers, and if they’re already on a journey, encourages them to continue on, no matter what the challenges are.
**I’m grateful for the obvious, and not so obvious, lessons Mother Earth continues to teach me.
**I’m at a point in my spiritual journey where I look forward to anything that’s NOT comfortable, in regards to myself, so I can learn from it.
**I’m grateful I’m not judging others, or situations, as much as I use too. For when you’re judging anything, all you’re doing is judging yourself, right?
**I’m grateful to “own” my journey and not blame my life’s circumstances on others.
**I’m grateful I can eventually laugh at myself whenever I screw up.
**Lastly, I’m grateful I Love myself…my True Self…a Light Being of Source.

May Peace and Laughter saturate your loving Soul throughout 2019.
Bryan…….the Light Being (batteries included)

A New Year Reflection of 2018 – by Shiela Reed

A year in review.. while there have been majorly significant events occur in my personal life, it has also been a year of major shifting of energies for everyone across time and space.

Our world is always changing and while there have been large shifts in history, this year is one of them for us in this lifetime. While this time is one of transformation, we all are feeling the mental, emotional, and even physical effects of the energetic shifts of the universe that we do not “see”… there is a HOPE for a future of peace.

There is such a natural desire to reflect and ponder on our year(s) past, while also dreaming into the next year and our future ones. Yet innately we know we cannot linger in either place too long. The memories of the past and the activities of the future only exist TODAY. And this is when we create our new awareness.

While it is important to have our moments and live in the experiences full of all kinds of emotions, I am reminded that my fears of losing memories and/or of not being able to control an outcome often sidetrack me from what I’m needing to be present for and truly save within my heart.

I have struggled this year with anger, frustration and loss. I have also found deep meaning and profound balance. I have found peace in solitude as well as my way back to interest in connecting with people of my own choosing. I have felt weak, sad, and alone but less lonely. I have felt fierce, strong, and confident.

My experiences have been many… there has been much self reflection and following of inner guidance. I have felt an incredible shift within myself and the collective as a whole. I’ve closed the year sharing a level of vulnerability that I have frequently been too uncomfortable to share, only to find my greatest strength.

Although the last few years of contemplation and self awareness work have been necessary and much needed. (Much like a winter slumber or change of season) I feel it is time for activity and movement… a time of positive change and fruition.

I am ever so grateful to have the new tools to appreciate one of the most heartbreaking times and then one of the most rewarding times of my life this year. (I will write on these at a different time when prompted to do so) Instead at this moment I am being asked to share this broader reflection and message of a year ending and a new year beginning.

My desire is to add positive energy to this year.. I hope to continue to grow more personally and increase the opportunities for sharing of my gifts of support and guidance to those that wish to have my assistance.

This year I encourage us all to spread kindness not gossip
Share love not hate
Allow all feelings, let go of the outcomes and enjoy the experiences by being present in each and every moment.

I hope you will join me…
Peace, Love, and Blessings to one and all

Shiela

December Message of the Month – Our Life

by Shiela Reed

Originally posted December 18th 2018  (how ironic that the website went down after posting this and I had to “reset it” to the the day before this – Dec 18th is the day my world started to change forever… I am glad to have been reminded to revisit this.. more true than I could have even imagined it was going to be.)

It’s our life after all… to make choices… for better or worse.. it will be “good” or not… we live it based on how we choose.

I’ve written before about choices …seems like a simple enough topic, yet when you really try to narrow it down it’s actually a lot more complicated than that. From an emotional standpoint of course, so it’s more about the “choosing” that’s complicated. The actual act of “The Choice” can be difficult but in reality the hard part is already done. Digging into the emotions, acknowledging the emotions, being aware of underlying things and not just being “reactionary”… yep, THAT’S the hard part.

So what is one to do? Today I find myself having these questions. I’ve had these questions before.. I find some answers.. I find more questions… today some of those things remain the same and some of those things I find something different…

One thing remains the same, and it’s the ME factor. I am the part that remains center to it all. Even when I feel far “off center”, it is still me. My own “good and bad” is defined my ME. My love, happiness, pain, suffering… is mine by my choosing. I’m learning to be ok with that. I’m also learning that when I’m NOT, then it is only ME that can dig around and find a new “definition”. Or a way to acknowledge what I’m going through and decide to FEEL it ALL THE WAY THROUGH!

No short cuts when we make a “choice”… if we do, then we miss the whole “lesson” or “learning moment” and it will just reappear in another place as a “new choice”….

I share this today as this year and month has been a challenge on many levels. Both for me personally and I know for many others. Not exactly “good” or “bad”, as I prefer to have a definition based on “opportunity”. Yet the “opportunities” this year have come with what feels like a “price”. And while that is true to me, I also realize it’s more about some of my own resistance and struggle to “DO the choices” while also acknowledging the need to keep moving forward toward NEW choices.

Although a bit cliche, it never gets old to me.. life is a dance, a journey, a cluster of experiences.. I “dance” and “go” where I want and where I choose. Our lives are built from experience to experience… it just gets hard sometimes to “see” because there are so many at once. (Thinking of another cliched phrase- but a bit opposite- “can’t see the trees, for the forest” instead of the “forest for the trees”)

Regardless, it’s OUR LIFE… Live it as well as you choose. While allowing the Grace to “go through it” even when it’s messy and hard and we desperately seek Peace, that deep down we already know is at the center of US.

May you find peace, blessings, and courage as we end this year and begin anew, with the spirit of embracing change and acceptance through the allowance of lifes path.

Much love
Shiela